#91 im unemployed but God has made me rich

This one's just me, no guest, working through where my faith actually is right now. I've just finished university, I'm unemployed, a couple thousand pounds into my overdraft, and I quit my weekend job cleaning toilets, and somehow I've never felt richer. That's where I start: why real wealth has nothing to do with what's in your bank account, and how the Sermon on the Mount pulled years of anxiety off me.

I get honest about the stuff I'm still bad at. How I won £500 at a Dragons' Den-style pitch and felt nothing but bitter I didn't win more. How I once said no to lending someone a couple of peppers because I wanted them for my own dinner, and only realised hours later how selfish that was. How I spent years chasing followers, awards and recognition, convinced money would make me free, while feeling miserable every single day. Then a friend named Ben handed me a Bible, I started reading it every morning, and everything quietly changed, including a grant that now lets me do this full time.

The second half gets more uncomfortable. I talk about being judged and hated for your faith and why that's actually a sign you're on the right path, the gap between what I claim to believe and how I actually behave, and what the Book of James and the story of Abraham and Isaac taught me: faith you only talk about is dead, and the real proof is what you do. My hope is simple, that this pushes you to open the Bible yourself, even when it's hard, especially when it's hard.

Takeaways

• I'm unemployed and in debt, but God has made me rich.
• Giving the moment someone asks is harder than it looks.
• My actions matter more than my words.
• I'm more blessed than I ever realised.
• Everything except my connection with God is a bonus.
• I finally saw that God was behind all of it, even through my parents.
• I can't serve both God and money.
• When I judge others, I'm really judging myself.
• I'm rich in the Holy Spirit.
• I believe God has a plan for me, and for you.
• Forgiveness isn't optional, and judging others is a sin.
• I should expect to be judged and hated for doing good.
• The people persecuted for their faith are the blessed ones.
• Faith without action means nothing.
• My actions have to match what I claim to believe.
• Trusting God sometimes costs me something.
• God tests my faith to make it stronger, He doesn't torment me.
• I have to obey even when I don't understand.
• Real faith shows up in what I do.
• Reading the Bible every morning is what keeps me growing.