Could my body memories be from an assault I don't remember? AKA 148

Ask Kati Anything ep. 148 | Your mental health podcast, with Kati Morton, LMFT This week licensed therapist Kati Morton talks extensively about body memories, and how they can be from abuse or assaults we don’t remember. She also explains the connection between self injury and sexual abuse, and how we can later use masterbation as a way to retraumatize or harm ourselves. She also discusses how we can build up trust with our therapist, how to keep motivated when looking for a job, and what to do when you love your parents, but the relationship is toxic. Then she talks us through why it can be hard to make any decisions for ourselves, and offers ways we can mitigate our self injury urges. This and so much more in this week’s episode of AKA! Audience questions 1. Hi Kati, this is a hard and weird question for me to write, but thank you for allowing us to ask these types of questions. Sometimes I experience what might be body memories that suggest a sexual assault (though I have no memory of anything). 2. I’ve been seeing my therapist for almost a year now and I still find it really difficult to fully trust her. I am aware that she has done nothing but show me reasons that I can and should trust her. She has the patience of a saint 3. How do you stay motivated when applying for jobs and get rejection after rejection? 4. How do you find the emotional balance when you truly love your parents, are thankful for everything they've done for you, but at the same time you have to deal with the consequences of their emotional neglect and abuse. 5. Why do I find it so difficult to make decisions? I can support others to make decisions or make simple decisions on behalf of others with no issue, but as soon as it's for myself, I have this internal battle. 6. My question is on ways to mitigate sh. I use sh to cope with panic attacks related to trauma (I have ptsd), and my therapist is aware of it. Both me and my therapist agree that working on the trauma that causes the self harm is better than working on the behavior... Kati's Books (in stores now) Traumatized https://geni.us/Bfak0j Are u ok? http://bit.ly/2s0mULy Amazon Suggestions https://www.amazon.com/shop/katimorton Online Therapy I do not currently offer online therapy. My sponsor BetterHelp can connect you with a licensed, online counselor, please visit: https://betterhelp.com/kati Patreon https://www.katimorton.com/kati-morton-patreon/ Business Contact Linnea Toney linnea@underscoretalent.com Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices