She’s back, but still...

Back & Blank. Blocked and Possibly Jilted (great). Currently Hiking. New Job, First Day. Getting over ‘Rona via Happy Naps. Back to Pissed tho...V unamused. Still Trying, but v Tried. Sad. Bullied over bananas. Am I getting fucked?? RV reenters scene—WHY? INFP dog issues. At a loss, and tired. Lonely. Trapped. Getting repeatedly shat on for petty shit. Crown redone! Dental PSA. Living with the bored, judgmental, and trying to move forward in silence. Universe needs to help with this reset and BS.. At a loss, but demanding assistance. Daily podcasting is over..? Intensely sad. A boyfriend??? Sure, yeah, No. Busy flailing & failing. Trying to do things right. Not strong enough for dating apps and meanies/freaks anyways.. Dealing with introvert hatred. Weak Queen of failure. Scraping by. Hoping for a better way, to escape to the next town over.. leniency. Please don’t yell at me—begging. Paperwork. Death to the rat king. YouTube reminder & Podcast changes (over myself) PART II: asking for help..at a loss..being grateful...bumble? Listing...dealing with sadness, not being liked. Enneagram stuff. Trying Thankful vibes. Living on a grand and will. 5w4, pretty sure. Can’t cry, masterbate, feel. Trying to be INFJ nonchalantly. Just tomorrow.