100 - Goodbye for Now
One hundred episodes. Two and a half years. This is the moment when we pause and look back, say thank you, and close this chapter that is so dear to our hearts. Amanda and Kyle take a trip down memory...
16 Maalis 29min
99 - What Kyle Knows Now
We've been crying for days, and we're not done yet. In this penultimate episode, Amanda and Kyle reflect on 2.5 years and nearly 100 episodes of The Cult I Left Behind — what it cost, what it gave bac...
2 Maalis 45min
98 - Good Girls Don’t Scream
Many of us who were raised to be good little girls are facing some hard realizations these days. This episode is a stark look at the links between cults, high-control religion, and sex trafficking rin...
23 Helmi 41min
One-Week Delay
We're focusing on our little family this week, but will release back-to-back episodes to make up for the delay. See you in a week! Support the show
15 Helmi 21s
97 - Fear: The Foundation of Cults
Fear lives in the stories we tell ourselves, the categories we cling to, and the way we decide who is safe and who is “other.” In this episode, Amanda and Kyle examine how fear quietly shapes worldvie...
2 Helmi 25min
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25 Tammi 1min
96 - Exposure Isn't Change
We’re often told that exposure leads to change. That once harm is named, brought into the light, or made public, something will finally shift. But that hasn’t been Amanda's experience. In this episode...
19 Tammi 44min
95 - Jeffrey Epstein, Bill Gothard, and the Architecture of Abuse
In 2024, as public conversations about abuse, grooming, and accountability unfolded again and again, Amanda found herself watching familiar patterns repeat. These patterns felt uncomfortably close to ...
5 Tammi 40min
