‘Desire Is Never the Mistake’
Modern Love16 Joulu 2020

‘Desire Is Never the Mistake’

This holiday season, it’s OK to want more. Paula grew up in foster care, and year after year she would find herself “clobbered by desire” when the holidays rolled around. She longed for a mother and father to rescue her and “make everything better”; she wished for the hip-huggers and games she saw on TV.

When she was 21, she met a man named Jeff who ruptured this annual cycle of desire. He became the inspiration for a hard-earned Christmas lesson.

Featured stories:

  • “The Holiday of My Dreams Was Just That,” by Paula McLain
  • “A Sweet Reminder,” by Meg Christman


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