The Dark Side of Jehovah’s Witnesses: My Husband Refused to Let Me DIE Despite Blood Doctrine

Having left the Old Order Amish 27 years ago, Eli Yoder, has helped 200+ people flee the Amish community. In today's episode, we discuss the consequences of leaving the Amish, how his mother demanded he never return, and ultimately how his fan base helped soften his mother, and the discussion they recently had when he paid her a visit. Click here to watch on YouTubeEli’s 1st interview: When Depression is Considered SIN in the Old Order AMISH (ft. Eli Yoder) Eli’s 2nd interview: Old Order AMISH: Devastating Effects of ZERO S*x Ed Before Marriage (ft. Eli Yoder)Find and Support Eli!Eli’s book - Undeceived: From Amish Tradition to Christ’s RedemptionWebsite: Eliyoder.comYouTube: @eliyoder491 TikTok: @YoderToter40 Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/eli.yoder.33Resource for current Amish who need help: https://amishrescuemission.org/Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @sheliseannFind us on Social media!Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**Chapter marks00:04:01 Eli explains the Old Order Amish00:07:03 Why Eli wanted to leave the religion00:13:18 How Eli escaped the Old Order Amish00:16:38 How affection is s*xualized within the Amish community00:22:15 Consequences of leaving00:31:08 Eli's mother cuts him off00:41:12 Eli reflects on the reconciliation with his mother00:49:48 Amish Traditions Eli Still holds onto00:50:53 Eli’s book: Undeceived: From Amish Tradition to Christ’s Redemption00:55:29 Linda, ListenSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

29 Heinä 57min

Rachel Clinesmith found herself in Los Angeles in the middle of an entire scene dedicated to Vampyres; a lifestyle she would come to love. Head of the Vampyres is a man who named himself Father Sebastiaan, making custom fangs for his followers. Sebastiaan established a Vampyre religion, with him as prophet who claims to syphon energy from his Vampyre Balls and offer it up to an entity. Becoming part of his inner circle, Rachel reveals the occult practices and rituals, and exactly what happened in his invite-only balls. Click here to watch on YouTubeWatch Rachel's full interview on YouTubeFind and support Rachel!IG @swampophile TikTok @swampophile Linktree Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @sheliseannFind us on Social media!Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

28 Heinä 44min

Growing up in what she would describe a misfit lifestyle, Rachel found comfort in the goth scene. Her makeup artistry took her to Los Angeles where she found an entire scene dedicated to Vampyres; a lifestyle she would come to love. Head of the Vampyres is a man who named himself Father Sebastian, making custom fangs for his followers. He established a Vampyre religion, with him as prophet who claims to syphon energy from his Vampyre Balls and offer it up to an entity. His invite-only occult practices and rituals were not the only dark thing about him. Aside from countless women coming forward with SA claims, Rachel was used for her time, labor and money while working for him. He would go on to take everything from her, which is why she is choosing to speak out. Click here to watch on YouTubeFind and support Rachel!IG @swampophile TikTok @swampophile Linktree Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @sheliseannFind us on Social media!Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**Chapter Marks00:03:36 What it means to be a vampyre and how it differs from vampire00:05:44 How Rachel became involved with this group00:13:14 What Sebastian was like and why people were drawn to him00:15:06 How Sebastian got started00:17:28 What it means to be part of the group and what goes behind closed doors at these events00:24:37 Questionable and harmful consent practices00:35:22 Sebastian's narcissistic behavior continues00:36:46 How Sebastian infiltrated himself into Rachel's personal and professional life00:45:57 Sebastian lays the groundwork for leading the entire vampyre community00:51:59 The fine line between fun and getting taken advantage of in the vampyre culture00:55:16 Vampyre Cosmetics goes downhill and Rachel finally gets out01:15:26 Where Rachel is today01:19:42 Linda, listenSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

28 Heinä 1h 21min

As a child, Michelle Dowd grew up on a mountain in the Angeles National Forest. She was born into an ultra-religious cult—or the Field as they called it—started in the 1930s by her grandfather, a mercurial, domineering, and charismatic man who convinced generations of young male followers that he would live 500 years and ascend to the heavens when doomsday came. Comfort and care are sins, Michelle is told. As a result, she was forced to learn the skills necessary to battle hunger, thirst, and cold; she learned to trust animals more than humans; and most importantly, she learned how to survive in the natural world. At the Field, a young Michelle lives a life of abuse, poverty, and isolation, as she obeys her family’s rigorous religious and patriarchal rules—which are so extreme that Michelle is convinced her mother would sacrifice her, like Abraham and Isaac, if instructed by God. She often wears the same clothes for months at a time; she is often ill and always hungry for both love and food. She is taught not to trust Outsiders, and especially not Quitters, nor her own body and its warnings. But as Michelle gets older, she realizes she has the strength to break free. Focus on what will sustain, not satiate you, she tells herself. Use everything. Waste nothing. Get to know the intricacies of the land, like the intricacies of your body. And so she does. Using stories of individual edible plants and their uses to anchor each chapter, Forager is both a searing coming-of-age story and a meditation on the ways in which understanding nature can lead to freedom, even joy.Click here to watch on YouTubeFind Michelle:Subscribe to SubstackPick up a copy of Forager: Field Notes for Surviving a Family Cult IG: @michelledowdz https://www.michelledowd.org/We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking pageSubscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @sheliseannFind us on Social media!Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**Chapter Marks00:00:00 Intro00:04:02 The Familiarity She Had with "The Field" & Why Her Family Moved There00:06:17 The Organization Her Grandfather Started & All Its Rules00:12:48 How The Cult's Teachings Still Stick with Her Today & It's Effect on Her Mother00:18:00 Michelle Talks about the Healing that She Got By Being With Her Mom at the End of Her Life00:22:35 Michelle’s Connection With the Earth00:25:51 CW: CA, Michelle Mentions Her Father's Abuse and How Sickness Led to Her Growing More Independent00:29:56 Michelle Talks about Being Hospitalized and Discovering She Had an Autoimmune Disorder00:33:12 Michelle’s Time in the Hospital & Her Education from Reading the Bible00:39:59 The Cult's Proselyting Methods, Beliefs About Christianity, & Fundraising00:45:30 CW: Brief Mentions of Suic*dal Thoughts, Michelle Shares the Complicated Experiences Surrounding Her First Romance00:51:20 Michelle Shares Her First Experiences Outside the Cult & Her Life Now00:55:44 Michelle's Final Thoughts & Linda ListenSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

25 Heinä 58min

After an incredible interview with former gang member, Sosa Henkoma, we are going LIVE today with him to further discuss his time in prison. We're diving into how he was repping the gang who betrayed him while in prison, how he navigated the system as a gang member, and how he found out through therapy that he was groomed. Further discussing the ways he had to deconstruct his past and see it in a new perspective.Click here to watch on YouTubeWatch Sosa's initial interview here Find Sosa on social media:www.instagram.com/sosa_estwww.instagram.com/escaperoutes_uk/https://linktr.ee/sosa_estWe want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking pageSubscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @sheliseannFind us on Social media!Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

24 Heinä 23min

Sosa Henkoma was 8 when he ran away from v*olence at home. At 9 he was groomed by a gang in the UK, drawn into dr*g traff*cking while feeling abandoned in foster care. He recounts the moment he had a shotg*n pointed to his head at 11 during a raid. On this 12th birthday, just released from the hospital after being st*bbed, we has given his own shotg*n, and a bulletproof vest. Trapped in a life of crime for the next decade, he ran g*ns and dr*gs between London and Liverpool, becoming known as “The Devil Walking on Earth”. Sosa says said he counts himself lucky to still be alive after he was st*bbed at least 11 times and shot at twice. It was only after Sosa was convicted and imprisoned that authorities deemed him to be a victim. He describes how fatherhood, therapy and sheer luck saved him.Click here to watch on YouTubeFind Sosa on social media:www.instagram.com/sosa_estwww.instagram.com/escaperoutes_uk/https://linktr.ee/sosa_estWe want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking pageSubscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @sheliseannFind us on Social media!Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**Chapter Marks00:04:45 Sosa's early years in Nigeria00:05:51 Sosa moved to the UK at 8 to live with his father (was still not able to know him)00:08:22 CW: CA - Sosa's stepmom became abus*ve00:12:27 The events that led to Sosa leaving the abus*ve household00:17:54 What it was like in UK foster care00:19:52 How Sosa learned about gang culture00:24:12 Sosa was useful for his bike00:26:25 Meeting the elders00:29:23 Hierarchy and dr*g business within a gang, explained00:34:16 11 year old Sosa didn't know that he was helping sell dr*gs00:35:27 Sosa explains what "banking" meant (not what you think)00:39:17 11 year old Sosa gets raided by a rival gang00:40:23 Sosa gets a sh*tg*n pointed at his face at 11 y.o.00:44:42 Sosa starts year 7 at school, while having to watch out for his life00:49:49 Sosa learns to shoot a g*n00:53:21 CW: Gang related injuries at 1200:54:57 The trauma of being in a gang; disassociation00:58:19 CW: The worst of what Sosa saw and experienced01:01:54 Sosa gets nick named at 16, The Devil Walking on Earth01:03:25 Sosa was sentenced at 13 years old01:04:01 When Sosa got out of prison at 16, he went to war with the elders01:07:45 Sosa was set up to go to prison again01:08:57 Sosa faced being deported01:09:53 Sosa learns he was groomed, and is dealing with trauma01:14:14 The residual trauma Sosa deals with now01:15:21 What do those still in the gang think of Sosa speaking out?01:19:31 Sosa's advocacy work01:23:15 Linda, listenSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

24 Heinä 1h 24min

CW: Incestuous CSA, CA, DV- As a child, Aziza Kibibi was isolated at home with her siblings by her abusive father, who would viciously SA and impregnate them to create what he called “blue blood” children. Aziza would endure years and years of horrendous ab*se at the hands of her father, who impregnated her 5 times. CPS got involved and took her other children away. Things came to a head when Aziza’s father impregnated her again, kidnapped her and the rest of the family, while she was in labor and forced Aziza to drive to Florida (the state he was born in) to deliver her baby in a tent. Aziza fought for her children, while embroiled in a court case with her father that would ensure he received maximum sentencing for his crimes. Click here to watch on YouTubeWatch pt 1 here: https://youtu.be/difM2Gl5WMI?si=_IPNAstBSKvxfOpFFind Aziza on social media:IG: @azizakibibi https://linktr.ee/1azizakibibiDonate to Aziza’s Non profit to help end CSA - Precious Little Ladies: PreciousLittleLadies.orgWe want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking pageSubscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @sheliseannFind us on Social media!Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**Chapter Marks00:00:00 Intro00:04:14 Aziza Gives Background on Her Father & His Ab*se00:08:48 Aziza Breaks Down the Isolated & Confusing Environment Her Father Created00:12:07 Aziza's Living Situation with her Father, Siblings, & ChiIdren & Psychological Conditioning00:15:36 Aziza Shares her "Micro-Agressions" & Ways of Asking Outsiders for Help00:20:43 The Unhelpful Case Worker & Other Difficulties Regarding Her ChiIdren00:28:50 Aziza's father kidn*ps her and the family, heads to Florida for her to give birth in a tent00:35:49 Aziza’s First Time Standing Up to Her Father And Educating Herself00:40:40 The Court Process Aziza Endured to Have Her Father Pun*shed00:45:52 Aziza's Father Finally Gets Caught by Law Enforcement & Aziza's Rough Road Through the Legal Process00:51:47 The Drawn Out Legal Proceedings & How Her Father Always Found Ways Back Into Her Life00:55:14 Aziza’s Advice for Surv*vors & About The People Who Helped Her in the Courtroom00:58:45 How Aziza Got Back On Her Feet01:03:45 Aziza’s Organization & All the Efforts They Are Involved In01:09:34 Final Thoughts and Linda, ListenSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

23 Heinä 1h 13min

CW: Incestuous CSA, CA- Aziza Kibibi was isolated at home with her siblings, homeschooled, yet with impeccable education compared to her cousins. Her father began to introduce ways of life that would cause chaos, ab*se and pain. He declared modern medicine and doctors would not be used, even for his wife who would go on to have 11 children. He implemented polygamy and brought girlfriends around the house, even having children with them. He used his children for labor to build a home in the New Jersey winter. Worst of all, he started to SA his daughters, claiming that’s just what fathers did; purposely impregnating them to create what he called “blue blood” children. Aziza survived years and years of horrendous abuse at the hands of her father and now she helps to educate parents on CSA prevention. A true warrior. Click here to watch on YouTubeWatch pt 2 here: https://youtu.be/difM2Gl5WMI?si=FMLV4peinYqirTsIFind Aziza on social media:IG: @azizakibibi https://linktr.ee/1azizakibibiDonate to Aziza’s Non profit to help end CSA - Precious Little Ladies: PreciousLittleLadies.orgWe want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking pageSubscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @sheliseannFind us on Social media!Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**Chapter Marks00:00:00 Intro00:04:44 What Aziza's life was like before her father became ab*sive00:09:06 How Aziza's father led the family to a polygamist lifestyle00:13:40 How different religions affected Aziza's family00:15:23 Aziza's education, social interactions, and health are impacted by her father's control00:22:03 CW: s*xual ab*se Excuses for ab*se were made from the very beginning00:23:42 CW: s*xual ab*se00:25:28 Aziza's father moves the family to an unfinished house away from family00:31:18 Pregnancy in Aziza's family and giving birth at home- without proper medical care00:33:01 How Aziza's mother reacted to the ab*se00:33:51 CW: s*xual ab*se00:39:24 Aziza's life with her siblings and chiIdren in one home as a chiId herself00:44:10 Aziza's birth experience00:48:26 CW: s*xual ab*se00:49:52 The first escape attempt00:57:34 Health issues begin to appear in Aziza's chiIdren01:02:24 Aziza's family moves out of their house and to southern New Jersey01:04:01 ChiId services gets involved01:14:35 Aziza finally has the opportunity to get help01:19:32 Aziza gets a lawyer and is finally reunited with her chiIdren01:23:01 Aziza's crash course in life that led to her foundation01:31:13 Linda, listenSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

23 Heinä 1h 33min