“Internship” From Hell at Torturous Christian Extremist Honor Academy

CW: DV & suicide attempt. After being spiritually manipulated to marry a stranger, Jennie did whatever she could to be the woman her new husband wanted. Fitting herself into a tight, Mormon, Trad wife box, if began to suffocate her. One year in she almost had an out, as her husband was also unhappy and asked for a divorce. However, the high leaders in the church said no, and threatened their eternal salvation if they were to even consider breaking their temple covenants. What she would uncover 20 years later would leave her hanging on by a thread. Click here to watch on YouTube Watch pt 1: The Dark Side of Growing Up a Girl in the Mormon Church  Find Jennie! TikTok @lifetaketwo  IG @lifetaketwojennie  YouTube  @lifetaketwo7662    Linktree https://linktr.ee/lifetaketwo We want to meet you in real life!  Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION!  Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness  Host Instagram @sheliseann  Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_  TikTok @cults.to.consciousness  Twitter @cultstocon  **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Chapter Marks 00:00:00 Intro 00:02:55 Previous episode recap 00:03:32 Jennie's traumatic Mormon temple ceremony experience 00:13:27 Endowment session/temple marriage 00:19:37 Jennie's difficult wedding night 00:26:48 Struggling to be perfect for her stranger husband 00:35:11 Jennie abandoning her self worth and placing it on her achievements 00:39:52 The invisible shock collar of Mormonism & high generational expectations 00:42:09 **We are not against someone CHOOSING to be a trad wife** 00:44:24 Jake takes Jennie to a meeting with a high authority to drop a HUGE bomb 00:52:27 Jennie found out her husband had a double life 00:57:26 Jennie turned to the church for help & lost her faith instead 01:03:25 Uncovering the lies and deception from the Mormon church 01:06:36 TW: Su*c*de attempt- How Jennie's mental health took a dive after losing everything 01:12:32 The wild sychronistic way Jennie met her now husband 01:21:31 Linda, Listen Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

6 Touko 20251h 23min

Known for her uncensored TikTok @lifetaketwo, Jennie Gage expresses the dark side of being raised in the Mainstream Mormon church. She was groomed to be a stay at home wife and mother, with so much emphasis placed on virtue and virginity. When she was assaulted at 14, she was told to repent and read a book authored by a high LDS authority which said she would be better off dead than without her virtue. When she didn’t succeed, she gave her life even more to the church and when leaders, years later, told her to marry a man/stranger who had also just taken advantage of her, she called off her engagement to the love of her life and complied. Though devout and active members of the church, her parents were not allowed to attend her temple wedding due to extreme poverty making them unable to pay tithing.  Click here to watch on YouTube  Watch pt 2 here: https://youtu.be/n_N_P5RHhfM?si=dHeLa0ROKsXkRDU3 Find Jennie! TikTok @lifetaketwo https://www.tiktok.com/@lifetaketwo?_t=8oifKuMyiQY&_r=1 IG @lifetaketwojennie https://www.instagram.com/lifetaketwojennie?igsh=MWQ1ZGUxMzBkMA== YouTube @lifetaketwo7662 https://m.youtube.com/@lifetaketwo7662 Linktree https://linktr.ee/lifetaketwo We want to meet you in real life!  Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION!  Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness  Host Instagram @sheliseann  Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_  TikTok @cults.to.consciousness  Twitter @cultstocon  **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Chapter Marks 00:00:00 Intro 00:03:40 The meaning behind Jennie's TikTok handle "Life Take Two" 00:05:04 It starts with Jennie's parents' involvement with the Mormon Church (mother devout, father a non believer) 00:11:39 Jennie's mother and father's different stances on pre martial s*x 00:13:08 Growing up with Mormon purity culture and object lessons 00:16:37 Thin line between needing to be attractive, and being considered a "sIut" 00:22:29 The Mormon men in her college past not respecting boundaries 00:24:50 14 yr old Jennie's mother reads her diary, and blames her for a boy forces himself on her 00:27:42 Jennie goes to see the bishop, is blamed and reprimanded 00:29:33 As penance, Jennie has to read The Miracle of Forgiveness 00:30:27 TW: Suic*de attempt 00:32:06 An LDS therapist is assigned to Jennie, mom explains the attempt was worse than the r*pe for her salvation 00:35:28 More pun*shment came in the form of public shaming 00:39:04 The No-Kissing pack Jennie made when she went off to college 00:41:13 Jennie dated a lot in college 00:42:37 Jennie felt she had no other choice than being a wife and mother 00:44:35 Jennie's BYU counselor advised she take "Marriage and Dating" class 00:46:21 2 months after college Jennie had her first marriage proposal 00:49:18 Jennie's fiancé went to serve a mission, and she never saw him again 00:53:46 What caused Jennie to break off the engagement 00:55:31 How Jennie felt she was indoctrinated 00:58:38 How a stranger replaced himself as her fiancé, and married her within 6 weeks 01:15:28 Jennie's parents weren't allowed to attend the temple ceremony because they were behind on tithing 01:21:44 What pt 2 to Jennie's story looks like 01:25:03 Linda, listen Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

5 Touko 20251h 28min

Taking the world by storm are Mormon women from #momtok who are trying to break the mold of what it means to be a traditional wife in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. Will the Mormon Church accept them towing the line or in some cases “sinning” against the rules? Two former Mormon women weigh in and explain the purity rules behind why it may not be a good idea to accept a social media sponsorship collaboration from a s*x toy company, among other major points from episode two.  Click here to watch on YouTube Make sure to watch the continued conversation on  @alyssadgrenfell  channel here: https://www.youtube.com/live/SYpemPDElrU?si=QUG8BP8onmOwnLbK We want to meet you in real life!  Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION!  Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness  Host Instagram @sheliseann  Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_  TikTok @cults.to.consciousness  Twitter @cultstocon  **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

2 Touko 202544min

The new hit Hulu show “The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives” is making waves amongst the LDS and former LDS community. Many people asking questions about if these women can really call themselves Mormon when they admit to not following the rules and standards of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. The first episode discusses the swinging scandal. Is that really allowed in Mormonism? Ex Mormons Shelise Ann Sola and @theamandaraegrant weigh in on episode  1. Click here to watch on YouTube Watch the 2nd half of this conversation immediately after this live on Amanda's channel here:  https://www.youtube.com/live/9oaWQ7tKsq8?si=QcqL3kY6X4pmRvNf Find Amanda: YouTube:     @TheAmandaRaeGrant         IG: www.instagram.com/amandaraegrant @amandaraegrant We want to meet you in real life!  Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION!  Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness  Host Instagram @sheliseann  Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_  TikTok @cults.to.consciousness  Twitter @cultstocon  **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

2 Touko 202546min

Today we are joined live with Nephi Robinson, former Order cult member.  One of the most sacred tenants of The Order, a fundamentalist polygamous break of sect of the mainstream mormon/LDS church, is living polygamy. Nephi knew he was gay, but hid it most of his life because living authentically was never an option for him. He was essentially assigned a wife at a young age and had 7 children before he realized he couldn’t pretend anymore. His father, who had 14 wives and over 160 children was pushing him to take another wife, so he came out to him. Nephi was told he was gay for various reasons such as eating too much chicken and he needed to stay faithful lest he go to the depths of Hell. Thankfully, he didn’t listen, got out and isn’t hiding his true self any longer.  Click here to watch on YouTube Watch the full interview with Nephi here:  https://youtu.be/T9WlH9qdLf4?si=krItIsldZi-_cn73 Connect with Nephi! FB: Nephi Robinson https://www.facebook.com/nephi.robinson If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org We want to meet you in real life!  Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION!  Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness  Host Instagram @sheliseann  Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_  TikTok @cults.to.consciousness  Twitter @cultstocon  **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

2 Touko 20251h 8min

Joe grew up in a polygamist cult called “The Order.”  From the age of 3, he observed his father and uncles with multiple wives— his father, Daniel, fathering over 160+ chiIdren.  From the age of 9, Joe started working for The Order, while dealing with the physically and emotionally abus*ve Daniel.  As Joe grew up, his dating life was non existent, and he felt “behind”.  It became evident that only a small portion of the men were having all of the wives, and that not all of the men would be married.  What made it more difficult was that if Joe wanted to “come forward” on a girl, he had to go through Daniel, and also the Prophet, who arranged the cult’s marriages.  Things came to a head for Joe at 18, when his mother became sick with cancer and Daniel prescribed his own method to help her heal— fasting, as a way to “starve the cancer”, which Joe felt he couldn’t go against.  When his mother died, he decided to leave the cult.  The only thing stopping Joe from starting over was The Order having control of his bank account.   Click here to watch on YouTube Resource for those escaping polygamy: https://holdingouthelp.org/ Joe’s Magic Music Show with Mayce:  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3jBPdLV1lQc&t=88s Find Joe on social media: IG:  @johnjosephrobinson https://www.instagram.com/johnjosephrobinson YT:  https://www.youtube.com/@MagicPranksJohn We want to meet you in real life!  Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION!  Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness  Host Instagram @sheliseann  Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_  TikTok @cults.to.consciousness  Twitter @cultstocon  **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

1 Touko 20251h 22min

If you noticed our uploads haven't been as regular... it's because we've been going through A LOT of life changes!  Today we're here to discuss them all, answer any questions you may have, and take your feedback and suggestions.  Looking forward to seeing you soon! Click here to watch on YouTube We want to meet you in real life!  Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION!  Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness  Host Instagram @sheliseann  Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_  TikTok @cults.to.consciousness  Twitter @cultstocon  **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

1 Touko 202557min

CW: mentions of attempted suicide & infant abuse From a young age Priscilla was learning about how she would become a plural wife one day while simultaneously plotting her escape. She would have many failed attempts due to The Order’s desperate need to marry her off to one of her family members with the intention of making several children. They captured her and sent her to a facility to “break her” and when that didn’t work, they tried buying her with promises of fulfilled dreams and large homes. Seeing through the con and not wanting to marry her polygamous uncle, or multiple different cousins who propositioned her, she continued fighting to get out. Watch this episode on YouTube Find Priscilla! IG @pr1sc1ll4 We want to meet you in real life!  Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION!  Click here to go to the official booking page:  https://trovatrip.com/trip/north-america/mexico/mexico-with-shelise-sola-oct-2025  Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! https://www.youtube.com/@CultstoConsciousnessClips Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Our Merch! Patreon: Patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Website CultsToConsciousness.com Find Shelise on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon Theme Song Produced and Composed by Christian Guevara **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Chapter Markers 00:00:00 Intro 00:03:08 Pricilla's family dynamic 00:05:27 How Pricilla's step dad treated the children in the family and why he never had other wives 00:07:26 Working overnight for The Order and going to school 00:08:17 What life was like for Pricilla's mom 00:10:44 How it felt to be singled out and why Pricilla was "othered" 00:13:16 What Pricilla thought about The Order's beliefs growing up 00:14:07 How old was Pricilla when she first began preparing for marriage? 00:15:52 How Pricilla felt about polygamy as a kid 00:18:26 Pricilla's escape attempts as a child 00:22:10 Pricilla's family takes drastic measures to lure her back into The Order 00:23:10 Pricilla's experience in the safe-house 00:30:17 How the facility changed Pricilla's mindset 00:33:24 What life was like in the facility and how it broke girls' spirits 00:34:51 How the facility emphasized The Order's teachings about women 00:37:27 How the facility changed Priscilla and her relationship with her mother 00:37:55 TW: su*cide attempts 00:39:55 Priscilla's family was pushing her to marry her cousin or UNCLE! 00:47:39 Pricilla gets out of the facility and continues to fight to leave 00:47:52 TW: depiction of infant ab*se 00:50:44 Hanging out with cousins goes wrong 01:00:16 Priscilla escapes for the last time 01:03:22 Learning to survive in Vegas including going to school 01:05:33 Reconnecting with family 01:08:04 How is Pricilla doing now? 01:11:11 Linda, listen Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

9 Tammi 20251h 13min