24 Years Addicted to Heroin & Selling Drugs in Baltimore — I Should Be Dead

In episode 23 of F The Stigma Podcast, host Laisha Martinez sits down with Monica, who bravely shares her journey of surviving 24 years of active addiction. Monica opens up about the trauma that sparked it all—being forced to have an abortion—and how that pain led her down a dark path of substance use and self-destruction. She recounts multiple suicide attempts that she believes she miraculously survived through divine intervention. From her experiences as a drug dealer on the streets of Baltimore to the emotional and spiritual battles she faced daily, Monica holds nothing back. Now sober, she reflects on how she coped during her addiction versus the tools she uses today in recovery, offering hope, honesty, and inspiration to anyone who has ever felt lost. This is a raw conversation about pain, survival, redemption, and the power of transformation.Don’t forget to like, comment, and subscribe for more conversations that challenge stigma and bring awareness to mental health and addiction.Chapters |00:00 Intro & Early Life in Baltimore03:00 Family, Community, and Moving Neighborhoods07:00 First Encounters with Drugs14:00 Escalation: High School, Substances, and Challenges22:00 First Job, College Dreams, and Heroin25:00 Living with Addiction & Functioning31:00 Dealing & Consequences: From Selling to Prison39:00 Experiences in Prison & Streets Culture46:00 Changing Drug Scenes, Fentanyl Crisis, and Harm Reduction54:00 Multiple Suicide Attempts and Hitting Bottom01:00:00 Spiritual Programs & Beginning Recovery01:08:00 The Turning Point: Realizing Responsibility01:16:00 Accepting the Past & Embracing Recovery01:23:00 Living in Recovery & Finding Purpose01:29:00 Purpose, Teaching, and Looking Ahead01:30:00 Closing Thoughts & Podcast OutroFTS Medication Assistance Program | Apply today : https://www.fthestigma.com/pages/rx-assistanceDonate to support! : https://www.fthestigma.com/pages/donatePod links |Spotify | https://open.spotify.com/show/46dw6sl5t344p6PlBcykb3?si=35349a057d564bacApple Podcast | https://podcasts.apple.com/gb/podcast/f-ck-the-stigma/id1691599224Fuck the Stigma is a 501(c)(3) nonprofit that believes people shouldn’t be judged or labeled based on their mental health status. Whether you are struggling with an addiction or have been taking meds for a diagnosis, our community doesn’t judge and seeks to collectively end the stigma around mental health. Our mission is to normalize mental health and mental illness as widespread, treatable, and acceptable. We do this by providing useful resources, improving access to services for those who need help, sharing stories, and building a community of young people who all agree… Follow us! Website | https://fthestigma.com/Instagram | https://instagram.com/fukthestigmaTikTok | https://www.tiktok.com/@fthestigmaFacebook | https://www.facebook.com/FTStigmaX | https://x.com/fthestigmaSubscribe for more! | https://www.youtube.com/@fthestigmaTags in this video ↓fthestigma, podcast, addiction, recovery, trauma, anxiety, depression, ptsd, mentalhealth, mentalillness, nonprofit, vulnerability, youth, healthandwellness, god, sobriety, relapse, treatment, loss, grief, addicts, recovery, addict, relationships, los angeles, psychological, experience, spiritual, spirituality, alcoholic, addiction recovery, insanity, psychosis, story, neglect, jail, prescription, alcoholic, alcoholism, treatment, diagnosis, prison, criminal, psychology, doctor, dealer, baltimore diagnosis, felony, felonies#fthestigma #podcast #addiction #overdoseawareness #nonprofit #mentalhealth #mentalillness