God Answered My Prayer…Just Not How I Expected | TMC Ep. 58

I asked God to heal me…but deep down, I didn't want the healing.

In Episode 58 of The Middle Child Podcast, Royal Boles continues sharing her healing journey and gets brutally honest about what happens when you pray for God to remove something from your life while secretly hoping He gives it back.

Royal opens up about an eight-year relationship that became toxic and difficult to release, the trauma bond she experienced, and why simply blocking someone and cutting communication doesn't always mean you've healed.

She talks about wanting clarity, wanting confirmation, and realizing that she was asking God for healing while still holding on to what she thought she wanted.

This episode is about the uncomfortable middle of healing — the season when you know something isn't good for you, but you're not completely ready to let it go.

Royal also talks about faith, perseverance, surrender, God's timing, prayer, emotional healing, and learning to listen instead of always asking God for another answer.

The conversation explores what it means to stop chasing potential, stop trying to control the outcome, and trust God even when His answer doesn't look like the one you wanted.

Royal also opens up about how the relationship affected her confidence, her friendships, her family, and the way she saw herself. She reflects on becoming someone she didn't recognize while trying to make the relationship work.

In this episode, we talk about:

— Healing after an eight-year relationship

— Healing from a toxic relationship

— Why we sometimes rush the healing process

— Praying for healing while still holding on

— Trauma bonds vs. soul ties

— Letting go of someone you still love

— When God answers a prayer differently than expected

— Learning to accept what God is showing you

— The danger of chasing potential

— Wanting confirmation instead of surrender

— God's timing vs. our timing

— Seasons of perseverance

— What happens in the middle of healing

— Changing your words and your narrative

— Being honest with God about what you really want

— Prayer, tears, and waiting on God

— Learning to listen instead of always talking

— Grace and mercy during difficult seasons

— Finding gratitude after disappointment

— Healing, surrender, and spiritual growth

— Rebuilding your confidence

— Knowing when to stop fighting

— Moving forward after a toxic relationship

Sometimes healing doesn't look like getting back what you lost.

Sometimes healing means finally becoming honest enough to admit that you don't want to let go — and then trusting God enough to let Him do what you couldn't do for yourself.

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CHAPTERS

00:00 — I Asked God to Heal Me, But I Didn't Want the Healing

03:16 — Why We Try to Rush Healing

05:38 — Healing Is Uncomfortable

06:23 — God Answered a Four-Year Prayer

08:16 — I Asked for Healing, But I Didn't Want It

13:19 — Why Trauma Bonds Are So Hard to Break

17:09 — An Eight-Year Relationship Changed Me

20:08 — When Chasing Becomes Begging

24:15 — I Don't Have Any More Fight Left

26:37 — Why You Can't Rush the Healing Process

29:15 — When God Gave Me What I Prayed For

35:20 — Being Gracefully Broken

40:00 — The Turning Point: Choosing God

47:24 — Transformation Happens in the Middle

54:12 — Sometimes God Wants You to Listen

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