230: What if you discovered you were the enemy?

230: What if you discovered you were the enemy?

“It’s just terror, it’s just fear with no object…It’s so purely guttural and instinctive it’s almost like the prey of a tiger…the moment that it knows it’s about to be ripped apart.”


Today's episode featured Neil Woods. You can find out more about Neil by going to neilwoods.net, where you can also find links to his two books: Good Cop, Bad War and Drug Wars, with more about his own experience and about the War on Drugs in Britain. To find out more about his organization, LEAP, or Law Enforcement Action Partnership, go to lawenforcementactionpartnership.org.

Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits

Episode Summary: Growing up with a sense of heroic duty, a man becomes a cop fighting the drug war, when the sobering realities of his job lead him to profound awakening.

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Content/Trigger Warnings: near death, violence, suicide, mention of sexual assault, mention of gang rape, domestic violence, explicit language

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Intro Music: "Illabye" – Tipper

Music Bed: Ambient Themes by Nigel Coutinho

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152: What if you were a human shield?

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151: What if he made you think you were crazy?

151: What if he made you think you were crazy?

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150: What if you were trapped in a cycle of abuse?

150: What if you were trapped in a cycle of abuse?

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149: What if you committed child sexual abuse?

149: What if you committed child sexual abuse?

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148: What if you killed someone?

148: What if you killed someone?

“We have so much less control than we think we do….Death is really close at hand and we do not do ourselves often any favors by forgetting that.”Producer: Whit MissildineEpisode Summary: Firmly establ...

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147: What if your best friend was dying?

147: What if your best friend was dying?

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146: What if you thought your mother was a robot?

146: What if you thought your mother was a robot?

“I completely lost touch with reality. You can’t rely on those around you, and you can’t rely on what’s within you. That’s the most terrifying thing in the world.”Producer: Whit MissildineEpisode Summ...

14 Jan 202046min

145: What if your best friend met a tragic fate?

145: What if your best friend met a tragic fate?

“I’m the kind of person where I like to know answers. I don’t like secrets I don’t like surprises…I really want to know what brought him to that. I really want to know why.” Producer: Whit MissildineE...

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