ExMuslim Activist Speaks Out: Why She Remains Closeted After Leaving Islam

One of her first public appearances unmasked, South Asian ExMuslim, Haram Doodles, recounts what it was like growing up with a life of restriction and fear from her parents, her culture, and God. She reveals the details of why and how she ultimately left Islam. Speaking out now on social media as an artist and ExMuslim Atheist, her art is a collection of haram (forbidden) doodles that advocate in solidarity with other courageous ExMuslims who’ve left Islam as a protest of Islam's strict restrictions. She tells her story to spread the word about Ex-Muslim Awareness Month this December.

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Twitter: https://x.com/HaramDoodles

IG: @haramdoodles

Official website: https://haramdoodles.com

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00:03:26 Haram's life growing up as a child to immigrant parents and a Muslim

00:06:21 Planting seeds of doubt with the dinosaurs

00:08:38 Haram's teen years living with cognitive dissonance and finding ways to grow socially

00:10:58 What pun*shments looked like for Haram growing up

00:11:53 Haram's anxiety about doing the wrong thing and the pressure to answer to a higher power

00:14:27 How learning about other religions gave Haram some perspective on the world

00:16:24 The differences between how men and women are treated in Islam

00:20:45 What the Quran says about women and how Haram felt about it before and after college

00:23:47 How purity culture and modesty rules in Islam are viewed as protection for women

00:27:47 Haram's experience with facing marriage early, how college allowed her to put it off, and the rules she faced around going to school

00:30:23 Religious reasoning for young women and girls getting married

00:33:31 Studying the Quran in college from a professor who was also a Muslim

00:38:01 How women inflict gender roles onto themselves under the influence of Islam

00:40:37 How did Haram's mother feel about her role as a Muslim woman

00:43:22 Shaming others for not practicing Islam

00:43:46 Figuring out what is means to be an American Muslim

00:44:07 Figuring out what is means to be an American Muslim

00:46:07 The lack of support and shaming from Haram's family for not following a Muslim lifestyle

00:48:12 The difficulties of a lack of individuality for Muslim women

00:49:29 TW: Su*cidal ideation

00:51:51 How Haram met her husband and why she started Haram Doodles

00:57:39 What Haram Doodles has done for Haram and her followers

01:00:08 How Haram's drawings can help activate a person's critical thinking in a softer way

01:03:03 Finding bravery in her work as an artist

01:05:01 Haram's moment of freedom in Norway

01:11:54 Truly listening and seeing ex-Muslims for who they are and not for their choice to leave Islam and ex-Muslim awareness month

01:14:22 How Haram is doing now

01:16:22 Taking back power over your own body

01:19:38 Linda, listen

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