Pregnant at 15: My Strict Mormon Mother Forced Me to Repent
Louise Roberts grew up in a strict LDS (Mormon) household where the messages of apostles’ quotes would echo throughout. One of them being “if you are ever in a position to be r*ped, ask to be k*lled.” Her mother was not aware that she had already been h*rmed as a chiId. This led to feelings of worthlessness and shame which had her seeking love and acceptance from boys in her school. When she found herself pregnant at 15, we discover how the LDS church handled it despite her and her family’s wishes. A tale of rejection, perseverance and resilience. Click here to watch on YouTubeSubscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @sheliseannFind us on Social media!Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**Chapter Marks00:00:00 Intro00:04:35 Louise’s Family and Her Devout Mormon Upbringing00:12:17 More of Louise’s Mormon Upbringing & Deciding to Cut Ties With Her Mother00:16:00 Louise’s Defining ChiIdhood Memories00:21:50 Louise Becomes Pregnant at 1500:27:19 Louise Experience with LDS Family Services and Why She Didn't Give Her ChiId Up for Adoption00:31:28 Louise Talks About The Religious Repercussions of Getting Pregnant00:40:00 TW: CSA, Quotes from "The Miracle of Forgiveness" that Louise’s Mother Used to Teach Her00:45:42 Toxic Situation with Her Mother and with the Church00:56:44 Navigating Life After Having a ChiId, and Her Mother's Pressuring Her to Get Married01:00:11 The Pressure and Judgement Her Mom Put on Her and Her Husband01:09:25 Deconstructing Her Previous Faith01:14:59 Finally Being Able to Make Friends After Her Faith Deconstruction01:22:54 CW: CSA, Louise Shares A Few More Details About Her Family01:27:44 Louise’s Life Now and Linda ListenSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.
5 Aug 1h 33min
The Darkside of Ex-Mormon Content Creating ft. ExmoLex
After 25 years of being a devout Mormon, when Lexi started questioning her faith, she had no support other than the online content made by ex-Mormon creators. When her father saw that she responded to and agreed with an ex-Mormon social media post, he snapped at her to keep her mouth shut about her opinions. This was the moment that fueled her to start her own ex-Mormon YouTube channel, and so Exmo Lex was born.Since then, the last 6 years as a content creator have been quite the ride. Each week she’s furthered uncovered the discrepancies in the Mormon church, all while on her own deconstructing journey. From dealing with hate comments, to being disowned by her husband’s parents… today Exmo Lex dives into the Darkside of creating ex-Mormon content, and why she’s now choosing to step away.Click here to watch on YouTubeExmo Lex’s goodbye video: I’m "Quitting" Ex-MormonismFind Exmo Lex on Social media!YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@ExmoLexTikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@exmolexTikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@nossraviTikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@thelittle.estfarmSubscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @sheliseannFind us on Social media!Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**Chapter Marks00:00:00 Intro00:04:22 Why Exmo Lex decided to start making ex-Mormon content 6 years ago00:07:24 What led Exmo Lex to leave Mormonism00:11:04 The CES Letter, and it's impact on Mormons starting their faith crisis00:18:53 How Exmo Lex decided on her specific brand of ex-Mormon content 00:21:47 The darkside of being a content creator00:26:23 Exmo Lex on being an Ex Mormon content creator while still deconstructing00:32:11 How Exmo Lex's family felt about her creating ex-Mormon content00:43:04 Exmo's favorite response to "the members aren't perfect, but the church is"00:45:31 Exmo Lex's biggest "I can't believe I didn't know that about the church" moment00:50:50 When Exmo Lex decided to give up creating ex-Mormon content00:52:46 What it would take for Exmo Lex to get one video out a week01:01:44 What Exmo Lex will focus on now01:06:47 Linda, listenSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.
4 Aug 1h 10min
Mormon Bishop Exploits Teen Girl for Years With “Worthiness Interviews”
In a church that requires confessions from ages as early as 8, to an untrained, inexperienced, randomly appointed man, it leaves a lot of room for a potential ab*se situation. In Taylor’s case, she developed scrupulously (religious OCD) and felt compelled to repent of every single thing that would be seen as a sin by the LDS church. Her bishop further took advantage of her, asking for explicit details of her intimate life with her boyfriend, including over text message and in his own home. This type of clergy ab*se is not the standard, but unfortunately not uncommon. Taylor describes living with this condition and the immense guilt and shame that followed her into her mission and beyond. Click here to watch on YouTubeFind and Support Taylor! IG: @taylormaydemassage Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @sheliseannFind us on Social media!Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**Chapter Marks:00:04:53 Taylor’s ChiIdhood & Her Family's Relationship with Mormonism00:12:33 Some Background Information on the Mormon Church00:16:17 Taylor’s Traumat*zing Experiences with One-On-One Interviews & Her Relationships as a Teen00:22:07 CW: CSA, Eating D*sorders, More About Taylor's Experiences with Her Bishop and The Beginnings of Religious OCD00:29:45 Taylor’s Conflicting Feelings Surrounding The Mormon Church00:36:17 CW: SA, Taylor Opens Up About The Details Surrounding Being S*xually As**ulted00:40:36 CW: SA, Taylor Shares Her Experience Being Blamed For Being As**ulted Coupled with Religious Guilt00:46:20 More About Taylor's Guilt and Her Experience Leaving The Church00:49:35 Taylor Shares The Doctrinal Foundation for Her Religious OCD00:52:26 Taylor’s Church Leader's Opinion on Her OCD Diagnosis & More About Leaving the Mormon Church00:59:02 Taylor Describes How Her Mormon Mission Contributed to Her Leaving The Church01:05:14 Taylor Shares About Her Self-Exploration and Decisions Made After Leaving the Church01:08:33 Taylor's Journey and Healing with Religious OCD01:14:04 Final Thoughts & Linda ListenSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.
1 Aug 1h 18min
The Handmaid’s Tale is Real (Ex Polygamist Cult Members React) ft. Growing Up in Polygamy
Join us with the amazing husband and wife team, Sam and Melissa from @GrowingUpinPolygamy as they blind react to plot points of the Handmaid’s Tale and tell us all the ways some of these exact things were and ARE still happening in the Fundamentalist Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. Click here to watch on YouTubeYouTube: @GrowingUpinPolygamy Website: https://www.growingupinpolygamy.com/Instagram: @growing_up_in_polygamy Email: growingupinpolygamy@gmail.comResources for leaving Polygamy & volunteer opportunitiesIf you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.orgHolding Out Help: https://holdingouthelp.org/Short Creek Dream Center: https://www.shortcreekdreamcenter.org/Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @sheliseannFind us on Social media!Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.
31 Juli 1h 10min
FLDS & IBLP explained by "Growing Up in Polygamy"
Learn about the shocking similarities between the “Shiny Happy People” documentary cult which is the Institute in Basic Life Principles and the FLDS (Fundamentalist Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints)! Joining the conversation is husband and wife team Sam and Melissa from Growing Up in Polygamy. Click here to watch on YouTubeYouTube: @GrowingUpinPolygamy Website: https://www.growingupinpolygamy.com/Instagram: @growing_up_in_polygamy Email: growingupinpolygamy@gmail.comResources for leaving Polygamy & volunteer opportunitiesIf you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.orgHolding Out Help: https://holdingouthelp.org/Short Creek Dream Center: https://www.shortcreekdreamcenter.org/Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @sheliseannFind us on Social media!Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.
31 Juli 1h 19min
Swartzentruber AMISH: Seeking JUSTICE Against the Strictest Settlement
An expert witness for Amish and Mennonite court cases, Lizzie explains the rules of her intense settlement before taking us through her unbelievable story of disaster, lethal betrayal, tragedy, abandonment and perseverance. She even gives us a glimpse of the strange dating practice which takes place in the woman’s bedroom. Decades later she seeks justice against the Bishop who groomed and ab*sed her as a young girl. She updates us on his attempt to escape even the small sentence he was given as well as speaks on other cases she was a part of in which Amish women were targeted and harmed by sinister perpetrators.Click here to watch on YouTubeWatch Lizzie 1st interviewResources: https://www.theplainpeoplespodcast.com/resourcesHer book: “Behind Blue Curtains: A True Crime Memoir of an Amish Woman’s Survival, Escape, and Pursuit of Justice”Website: https://www.lizziehershberger.com/IG: @lizzie.hershberger Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @sheliseannFind us on Social media!Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**Chapter Marks00:05:47 Recap of Lizzie's story- how her chiIdhood affected her life for better or worse00:08:56 Each Amish community is different00:11:06 How pr*dators can thrive in Amish communities00:14:16 How a p*rpetrator who reports themselves to Amish authorities can get a lighter sentence00:15:59 The consequences of a lack of education on consent in the Amish community00:18:17 The definition of "adult" in the Amish community00:21:19 How ab*sers can seemingly get away with their crimes with little to no punishment00:24:38 What it means to be on probation00:30:03 What going back to court and facing her ab*ser was like for Lizzie00:32:21 How meaningful it can be to have supporters for victims in the courtroom00:34:39 The real life impact of C2C and spreading awareness00:38:58 Receiving supportive messages from those positively impacted from Lizzie sharing her story00:40:39 Amish vs English dolls and why they're different00:42:30 Becoming a victim advocate and helping others as they're going through court processes00:47:17 The language barrier between the Amish and English people and how we can better aid victims by understanding the differences00:47:55 CW: SA00:50:41 How a lack of English medical practices was detrimental to over 400 victims00:54:00 Lizzie's experience going back into the community for a funeral00:57:41 The difficulties of trying to help those in need when it has the potential to put yourself in a triggering situation01:03:47 What did Lizzie wear to an Amish funeral as someone who is no longer in the community?01:07:58 Linda, listenSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.
30 Juli 1h 10min
AMISH MEN SHUNNED: Emergency Alert Exposed Forbidden Phones ft. Eli Yoder
Former Amish, Eli Yoder, broke the news that several Amish men contacted him after being outed by the Emergency Test Alert. Some Amish communities allow cell phones, while other more strict communities still forbid them. Eli, is known for helping smuggle phones into these communities to better connect them with resources and help. He stated, "Some Amish men got shunned by the Amish Church for having smartphones in their pocket when the emergency alert system went off." Click here to watch on YouTubeEli’s 1st interview: When Depression is Considered SIN in the Old Order AMISH (ft. Eli Yoder) Eli’s 2nd interview: Old Order AMISH: Devastating Effects of ZERO S*x Ed Before Marriage (ft. Eli Yoder)Find and Support Eli!Eli’s book - Undeceived: From Amish Tradition to Christ’s RedemptionWebsite: Eliyoder.comYouTube: @eliyoder491 TikTok: @YoderToter40 Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/eli.yoder.33Resource for current Amish who need help: https://amishrescuemission.org/Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @sheliseannFind us on Social media!Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**See Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.
29 Juli 31min
Exiled AMISH Man Faces His Mother After 27 Years (ft. Eli Yoder)
Having left the Old Order Amish 27 years ago, Eli Yoder, has helped 200+ people flee the Amish community. In today's episode, we discuss the consequences of leaving the Amish, how his mother demanded he never return, and ultimately how his fan base helped soften his mother, and the discussion they recently had when he paid her a visit. Click here to watch on YouTubeEli’s 1st interview: When Depression is Considered SIN in the Old Order AMISH (ft. Eli Yoder) Eli’s 2nd interview: Old Order AMISH: Devastating Effects of ZERO S*x Ed Before Marriage (ft. Eli Yoder)Find and Support Eli!Eli’s book - Undeceived: From Amish Tradition to Christ’s RedemptionWebsite: Eliyoder.comYouTube: @eliyoder491 TikTok: @YoderToter40 Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/eli.yoder.33Resource for current Amish who need help: https://amishrescuemission.org/Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel!Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast.Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here!Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousnessVenmo @sheliseannFind us on Social media!Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.**Chapter marks00:04:01 Eli explains the Old Order Amish00:07:03 Why Eli wanted to leave the religion00:13:18 How Eli escaped the Old Order Amish00:16:38 How affection is s*xualized within the Amish community00:22:15 Consequences of leaving00:31:08 Eli's mother cuts him off00:41:12 Eli reflects on the reconciliation with his mother00:49:48 Amish Traditions Eli Still holds onto00:50:53 Eli’s book: Undeceived: From Amish Tradition to Christ’s Redemption00:55:29 Linda, ListenSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.
29 Juli 57min
