Finding God After Sexual Abuse and Hitting Rock Bottom - Jenn Saunders' Story

In this profoundly raw and inspiring episode, Jen Saunders opens up about a lifetime of trauma and a descent into darkness that nearly cost her everything.

Jen shares the story of a childhood fractured by sexual abuse that lasted for eight long years at the hands of a trusted figure who was active in the church. A broken home. A loss of innocence. A young girl's fervent prayers went unanswered, triggering a profound mental spiral and a conviction at age eight that "God didn't exist."

What began as simple heartbreak and self-blame quickly turned into a means of escape. Convinced she was "dirty" and a "victim," she started down a dark path of self-harm and turning to substances to numb the pain. The darkness took over faster than anyone could truly recognize, shattering her footing in reality.

Jen watched the girl she was supposed to be lose her way, hiding her pain and convinced she had to manage her suffering alone. This isolation led her to a violent, unforgettable rock bottom in her late teens, where she felt utterly broken and hopeless.

And yet, in that moment of despair, a path to recovery opened. Jen was left standing in heartbreak while embracing a new mission: to make sure no person ever feels they have to give up on their life.

Her story is a powerful look at the danger of believing you are permanently broken, and the truth that "doing the work" and finding a Higher Power is what ultimately saves lives.

Topics Covered:

- The devastating impact of childhood sexual abuse

- How trauma can lead to a loss of faith and spiritual crisis

- The link between self-blame, self-harm, and substance abuse

- Hitting rock bottom and the critical moment of choosing to live

- Finding God and forgiveness after being abused by a religious figure

- The importance of putting in the work for true recovery

- How to turn profound pain into a purpose by helping others heal

Share this with someone who needs this reminder:

You are not defined by what happened to you. Asking for help and "doing the work" is your path to freedom. Hope and a very blessed life are still possible.