Ep. 7: Sister Emilka and Lights Color Fade to Black

Last time, Exa traveled from Danbury to Brooklyn to scatter Lidiya's ashes. Along the way, she listened to a recording of Lidiya's final days: Chris's confessions, Lidiya's compassion, and the sacred ...

19 Feb 29min

Last time, Chris returned from a walk still wrestling with the weight of Lidiya's story—and his own doubts about finishing her book. Over dinner, an unexpected memory surfaced: a long-buried misunders...

19 Feb 42min

Last time, Lidiya journeyed through visions both luminous and unsettling, guided by Exa's steady presence. Amid hallucinatory forests, a ten-foot dewdrop, and the shifting edges of perception, she dis...

25 Dec 202543min

Last time, Lidiya recalled how music lifted her out of despair—and into a dangerous, intoxicating affair. What began with a night at the Kennedy Center ended in deception, heartbreak, and the realizat...

25 Dec 202526min

Last time, Lidiya recalled the moment everything changed.  A missed babysitter. A bouquet of daffodils. A fateful trip to Bethesda. In a single afternoon, she lost the people she loved most—and the ev...

4 Dec 202538min

Last time, Lidiya and Craig took their investigation to the edge—digging into secret programs, decoding euphemisms, and quietly exposing some of the CIA's darkest experiments. From university labs to ...

4 Dec 202545min

Last time, Lidiya and Craig made a pact: no more secrets. Together, they agreed to infiltrate the very systems that once recruited her. What began as quiet complicity was now open resistance—dangerous...

6 Nov 202540min

Last time, Lidiya brought us into the most luminous stretch of her past: a summer of discovery, joy, and unexpected love with Craig Johnson. From BASIC code to Capitol Hill, from omelets to Woodstock,...

6 Nov 202529min