My Husband's Suicide Led Me Back to Alcohol

In episode 67 of F The Stigma Podcast, host Laisha Martinez sits down with Wendy shares her incredible journey through trauma, grief, addiction, and recovery. After witnessing violence as a child, surviving sexual assault at 15, becoming a young mother, battling alcoholism, and losing her husband to suicide during his active addiction, Wendy opens up about the pain that shaped her life. Today, she uses the grief of losing her husband as her greatest motivation to advocate for mental health, addiction recovery, and hope. Her story is a powerful reminder that no matter how much you've been through, healing is possible, sobriety is achievable, and you can rebuild your life.Don’t forget to like, comment, and subscribe for more conversations that challenge stigma and bring awareness to mental health and addiction.Wendy's Links |Instagram | https://www.instagram.com/breezywend/Chapters |00:00 Introduction & Guest Story Tease00:37 Breaking Stigma of Mental Health & Suicide01:12 Dealing with Loss and 'What Ifs'02:27 Acceptance & Guilt after Loss04:08 Personal History With Suicide & Early Life05:13 Childhood, Family and Early Trauma06:31 Witnessing Trauma as a Child08:45 Pushing Through Trauma & Early Abuse10:03 Cycle of Blame, Perfectionism & Seeking Validation12:13 Handling Abuse Reports & Family Response14:01 Seeking Attention, Promiscuity, and Family Challenges15:41 Substance Use and Losing Control18:00 Teen Pregnancy, Family Response & Self Harm22:22 Abusive Relationships & Single Motherhood25:01 Self Harm Patterns and Coping Mechanisms27:10 Mental Health Struggles & Institutionalization29:09 Young Motherhood, Marriage & Eating Disorders32:22 Weight Loss Surgery and Family Changes33:40 Second Marriage & Escalation of Drinking36:42 Alcoholism Takes Hold – Blackouts and Neglect39:55 Family History of Addiction & Alcoholism41:31 Detox Attempts & Cycle of Addiction44:44 First Recovery, Relapse and the AA Journey47:53 Relapse, Escalation, and Self Harm50:34 Marital Turmoil & Husband's Decline53:46 Confronting Loss – Husband’s Suicide59:59 Processing the Trauma & Aftermath01:04:01 Relapse, Isolation, and Hitting Bottom Again01:09:07 Family, Recovery, and Changing Patterns01:10:33 Finding Lasting Recovery & New Purpose01:12:55 Living Out Loud – Service, Sponsorship, and Advocacy01:15:27 Lessons Learned, Family Healing & Legacy01:18:01 Spreading Hope & Breaking Stigma for Others01:21:00 New Life: Fitness, Teaching & Recovery Advocacy01:23:12 Final Reflections & Messages of HopeFollow us! Instagram | https://instagram.com/fthestigmapodTikTok | https://www.tiktok.com/@fthestigmaFacebook | https://www.facebook.com/fthestigmapodWebsite | www.fthestigma.comPod links |Spotify | https://open.spotify.com/show/46dw6sl5t344p6PlBcykb3Apple Podcast | https://podcasts.apple.com/gb/podcast/f-ck-the-stigma/id1691599224Tags in this video ↓fthestigma, podcast, addiction, recovery, trauma, anxiety, depression, ptsd, mentalhealth, mentalillness, vulnerability, youth, healthandwellness, god, sobriety, relapse, treatment, loss, grief, addicts, recovery, addict, relationships, psychological, experience, spiritual, spirituality, alcoholic, addiction recovery, insanity, psychosis, story, neglect, jail, prescription, alcoholism, treatment, diagnosis, prison, criminal, psychology, doctor, dealer, felony, felonies, forgiveness, spiritual, DUI, 5150, psych wards, #fthestigma #podcast #addiction #mentalhealth #mentalillness #recovery #criminal #addictionrecovery #addict #alcoholism