They Convinced Me My Father Was the Leader of a Torturous Satanic Cult
Lydia Knight grew up in a pioneer stock Mormon (LDS) family, but layered on top of that was a twisted, fabricated reality that her father was actually the leader of a Satanic cult who had v*olently ab*sed her as a baby. Lydia’s mother said she had received revelations of these horr*fic things and Lydia’s grandmother capitalized on this by gaining love and adoration from the LDS church members by appearing as a savior to the ab*sed chiIdren. Kidn*pped from Lydia’s father by her mother at 2 years old, she was told he was always searching for her so he could continue his Satanic practices. Not only was Lydia dealing with these imposed traumas, she was told if she ever broke the rules of Mormonism or told someone about her past, her whole family would be tracked down by the Satanists and k*lled. Fear and terror ruled her life until she finally decided to look for the evidence. What she found crumbled her entire reality and she began the search to reconnect with her father. Click here to watch on YouTube Watch Lydia's follow up Q&A Find and support Lydia! IG: https://www.instagram.com/theshecenter/ Resources & Memoire Split: theshecenter.org/podcast Website TheSheCenter.Org LinkedIn linkedin.com/in/lydia-knight-tsc/ TikTok - The She Center TikTok - Cult Stories Youtube https://www.youtube.com/@TheSheCenter Facebook Fan Page https://www.facebook.com/CenterOfShe We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Chapter Marks 00:00:00 Intro 00:03:32 Lydia Shares the Background of Her Charismatic Grandmother (Rac*sm) 00:08:04 CW: Mentions of CA, Lydia Shares About Her Family Dynamics Amidst the Satanic Panic 00:12:41 CW: Mentions of CA & CSA, Lydia Explains the Satanic Panic of the 80's and Her Early Memories 00:16:45 CW: Mentions of R*pe, CA & CSA, Lydia Shares the Manipulation and Mental States of Her Mother and Grandmother 00:22:03 Lydia Shares the Harm Caused by Her Mother's Obscure "Revelations" 00:27:59 Lydia Shares About the Interactions Between Mormonism and The Satanic Panic 00:33:18 CW: CA, Lydia's Talks about Her Grandma's Manipulation and Need for Importance 00:39:09 Lydia Expands on Her ChiIdhood Isolation and Other Difficulties Growing Up 00:43:59 CW: Mentions of R*pe & CSA, Lydia Shares the About Her Mormon Baptism & the Made Up Stories of Her Ab*se 00:48:11 Lydia's First Time Out of The House Attending BYU & First Contact with Her Father 00:53:13 Lydia's Mother's Extreme Measures to Protect Her & Beginning to Doubt 00:58:16 CW: Mentions of R*pe, Lydia Decides to Uncover the Truth and Exposes the Lies 01:03:55 Lydia Confronts Her Mother and Grandmother & Contacts Her Father 01:07:28 Lydia's Beautiful Reunion with Her Father After 25 Years 01:11:24 Lydia's Healing Journey & Helping Others 01:16:26 Lydia Shares How She Ensures She Won't Repeat the Cult Cycle with Her Coaching 01:18:58 Final Thoughts & Lydia's "Linda, Listen" Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.
7 Juli 1h 22min
Cracking Open My "Prophet" Grandfather's Holy Book
Sami's grandfather, who lived with Schizophrenia, compiled a 2422 page book of holy scripture in a failed attempt to start his own religion. Heavily inspired by Mormonism, yet drawing from almost every religion, it's full of many surprises. We can't wait to crack it open with all of you and find out what's inside. Click here to watch on YouTube Watch the full interview with Sami and her father, Adrian, here Sami’s go fund me to get the book digitized Find Sami on social media: www.youtube.com/@mildwestsami IG: @mild_west_sami We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.
4 Juli 1h 3min
Reacting to Harmful Religious Indoctrination Cartoons with Owen Morgan Telltale
Watch the first half of this episode at @OwenMorganTelltale here The youth have become more and more of a target since adults are leaving religions at an exponential rate. If they can indoctrinate them young enough, they just might have tithe paying members for life. Shelise and Owen Morgan from @owenmorgantelltale will be reacting to a Jehovah's Witness animated series called Caleb and Sophia and will discuss just how psychologically harmful they can be. Find and Support Owen! YouTube: @OwenMorganTelltale @owensfiresidechat @owenunfiltered @TelltaleReads Watch a full interview with Owen Here Watch Shelise on Owen's Channel Here Resources: https://jwfacts.com/ We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.
3 Juli 35min
8 Women from 8 Cults Compare Notes
Celebrating 200 episodes with these 7 other incredible women! We explore ways in which women are harmed, silenced and exploited within 8 different cults from their unique perspectives. The stories and wisdom were beautifully shared amongst survivors supporting each other. They also share ways in which they believe women can take back their power in or outside a cult and gain clarity and freedom. Click here to watch on YouTube FIND AND SUPPORT OUR GUESTS! Daniella Mestyanek-Young: previous interviews IG: @daniellamyoung_ TikTok: search #groupbehaviorgal Website: https://www.uncultureyourself.com/ Amazon: "Uncultured: A Memoir" Tia Levings: previous interview Website and book: http://tialevings.com/book IG: @tialevingswriter https://substack.com/@tialevings The Anti-Fundamentalist Amanda Rae Grant: previous interviews YouTube: https://youtube.com/@TheAmandaRaeGrant IG: @amandaraegrant Sarah Edmondson: Previous interview Instagram: @SarahEdmondson @ALittleBitCulty Website: https://alittlebitculty.com/ Website for book: https://www.sarahedmondson.com/book Beatrice Weber: previous interviews Linktree: https://linktr.ee/bweber Website: https://beatriceweber.com/about/ Jasmin Faulk: previous interview IG: @jasmin.faulk Website: http://www.jasminfaulk.com/ Book: The Last Sandstorm Podcast: I Want you to Meet Jasper Hoffman: previous interview Website: https://www.theplainpeoplespodcast.com IG: @ThePlainPeoplesPodcast @jasper.c.hoffman We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** 00:00:00 Intro 00:03:01 How did your cult use fear to keep women passive and obident? 00:17:44 The various ways your cult used Information Control to keep you isolated and unaware of the world 00:48:26 What are the "rewards" in heaven for women in your cult? 01:19:35 What made you want to finally escape your cult? 01:45:35 Words of advice to those currently in a cult that want to leave 01:53:54 Linda, listen Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.
2 Juli 2h 2min
THE ORDER: “I’m a Direct Descendant of Jesus Christ” ft. Amanda Rae
"The Order" or the "Kingston Clan" is known for their incestuous practices of polygamy in an effort to keep their "bloodline pure". They are a fundamentalist branch of Mormonism in Salt Lake City, where marrying 1st cousins and even half siblings, is seen as perfectly fine. Amanda Rae @TheAmandaRaeGrant , who was raised in this group, escaped at 17 and was seen on the TV show "Escaping Polygamy" helping others to do the same. Amanda explains the Kingston Clan's fundamental belief system, their concept of "Numbered Men”, inbreeding within, how they bring in new women to mix up the gene pool, and why the cult believes they are descendants of Jesus Christ himself. Click here to watch on YouTube Find and support Amanda: YouTube: @TheAmandaRaeGrant IG: @amandaraegrant If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Chapter Marks 00:00:00 Intro 00:02:52 The Kingston Clan's fundamental beliefs 00:05:48 "Numbered Men" explained 00:09:31 How The Order believes they are descendants of Jesus Christ 00:14:39 Inbreeding in The Order 00:20:19 Amanda explains how procreating is of the utmost importance in the order 00:30:45 Commenting on coming to terms with realizing things were wrong in The Order 00:33:14 Amanda shares her story on how she left The Order 00:36:45 Amanda explains how The Order brings in new women to mix up the gene pool 00:37:49 Racism in the order 00:52:06 Trying to apply critical thinking to the beliefs of the order Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.
1 Juli 1h 2min
Kicked Out of "The Order" Incestuous Polygamous Cult for Being Gay
Forced to suppress who he really is, Val Snow escaped the cult that almost put him through conversion therapy, and is now living a fulfilled life. Ask him your questions! Click here to watch on YouTube Resource for those escaping polygamy: Holding Out Help Check out our in depth interview with Val here Val's youtube Channel IG: @valiantunicorn Get more of Val's story on Amanda Rae's channel How Do People Get Brainwashed Unicorn t-shirt: Version 1 Version 2 We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.
1 Juli 49min
The Stigma of Men Speaking Out On Their CSA: “Children of God” Cult Survivor Opens Up
CW: CSA, SA, mentions of suicide…. Philip Seibel was born into the Children of God sex cult and survived many instances of CSA at the hands of his own parents. This was all part of the cult’s mentality “God is love and love is sex”. Our first episode together details his childhood and escape attempts. When he was able to get out successfully, he had no idea about the outside world. At the age of fifteen he ran away from his abusive parents and began to wander this world as a homeless street musician, learning how to survive. Now Philip is an outspoken critic of the statutes of limitations for crimes against children. Currently he lives in Switzerland, proud father and author, singer, songwriter, artist, wearable designer and hobby sound technician His books include The monsters that kiss you good night, The monsters that walk with me and his third book in this series currently in progress "No one speaks about the monsters" Click here to watch on YouTube Watch his first interview here Find and Support Phil: Website with his singles: https://www.philipseibel.com/singles YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@Philip-Seibel Books: The Monsters that Kiss You Goodnight The Monsters that Walk With Me A Broken Poet We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Chapter Marks 00:00:00 Intro 00:04:42 Philip's childhood in COG 00:11:29 How Philip processes what happened to him 00:16:37 How Philip managed as a 15 year old runaway 00:16:55 CW: CSA 00:19:56 Philip recounts his CSA 00:21:32 CW: CSA - The reason Philip remembers is CSA so well 00:29:37 The consequences Philip's dealt with for telling his story 00:31:51 CW: Society desensitized to women's SA and not men's 00:34:56 CW: mentions of suic*de 00:38:43 Philip felt he couldn't open up about CSA he experienced while dating 00:42:37 What it was like writing his first book - Philip comments on the responses people get when disclosing their trauma 00:46:19 Philip's thoughts on whether continuing to speak out will further hinder his success 00:55:51 How Philip is doing now 00:57:11 Linda, Listen 01:02:49 Philip sings and plays Little Black Sheep on his guitar Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.
30 Juni 1h 13min
Children of God: Inside the Mind of a Faceless Cult Leader
Within The Children of God, also known as The Family International, the members blindly followed the leader David Berg. They weren’t even allowed to know what he looked like. Only a select few were chosen to be in his presence and can tell the story of who “Grandpa” really was. He was a twisted man who married children, including our guest Serena Kelley who was only 3 years old. Serena is the only person left who is able to tell these stories. She explains what it was like being considered a “celebrity” in the group and how she had to mentally split herself and dissociate to survive. Click here to watch on YouTube Watch pt 1 of Serena’s interview here Watch pt 2 of Serena’s interview here Find Serena: IG: @serkelley Substack: https://substack.com/@serenakelley YT: https://www.youtube.com/@serkelley Website: https://serenakelley.com/ We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.
27 Juni 1h 13min
