161. Tadpole

She blazed in, she blazed out, through lesbian dating games & night hikes. Raven was the hiking buddy everyone wanted. Yet something was simmering... _____ Ep. 145 Raven the Amazon notes 11/20/23: ________ Patrick Teahan, LICSW https://www.youtube.com/@patrickteahanlicswtherapy _____________ John Fugelsang, Sexy Liberal Comedy Tour (a rare comedians who discusses Christianity in an approachable manner): https://www.johnfugelsang.com/ _______ 12 step, Adult Children of Alcoholics: https://adultchildren.org/ _______ National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, Hours: Available 24 hours. Languages: English, Spanish. 1-800-273-8255 ____ National Sexual Assault Hotline Hours: Available 24 hours 1-800-656-4673 _____ POD DESCRIPTION: This is The House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. This podcast is intended for entertainment purposes only, and I am a commentator. USE YOUR DISCERNMENT. Language is explicit. Names may or may not be changed, to protect some. Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, LGBTQIA+, recovery, codependency, comedy, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

21 Nov 202335min

Fate brings change, quick. The power of lightning is understood. And the largest funeral ever held, in Mannanah, Minnesota, at least by 1914 standards. ___ Ep. 144 notes. Instant 11/14/23 _______ 12 step, Adult Children of Alcoholics: https://adultchildren.org/ _______ National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, Hours: Available 24 hours. Languages: English, Spanish. 1-800-273-8255 ____ National Sexual Assault Hotline Hours: Available 24 hours 1-800-656-4673 _____ POD DESCRIPTION: This is The House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. This podcast is intended for entertainment purposes only, and I am a commentator. USE YOUR DISCERNMENT. Language is explicit. Names may or may not be changed, to protect some. Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, LGBTQIA+, recovery, codependency, comedy, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

14 Nov 202313min

Jackpot! Meditation rustles up a channeled chat, with Mohmah Darlene. New details about the House emerge, who rented it, and why. New concepts to me, that might explain what happened there, from Darlene's perspective. "Take what you like, leave the rest. " ___ Ep. 143 notes. "Zesty" Conan O'Brien. "Clive Clemens' inappropriate response channel." The bit is ~ 5 minutes, 40 seconds into this "Satellite TV Channels Greatest Hits" reel: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n4LoZz-r1pE _______ One manner of non consenting control, similar in approach, to some Walla Walla men: "The Grifters | ‘The Oranges’ (HD) - Anjelica Huston, Pat Hingle | MIRAMAX" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P-E0TMK55mQ _______ 12 step, Adult Children of Alcoholics: https://adultchildren.org/ _______ National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, Hours: Available 24 hours. Languages: English, Spanish. 1-800-273-8255 ____ National Sexual Assault Hotline Hours: Available 24 hours 1-800-656-4673 _____ POD DESCRIPTION: This is The House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. This podcast is intended for entertainment purposes only, and I am a commentator. USE YOUR DISCERNMENT. Language is explicit. Names may or may not be changed, to protect some. Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, LGBTQIA+, recovery, codependency, comedy, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

7 Nov 202325min

Drawn into conversation, somewhere in between, with an ancestor who... is in the mood to party. ___ Ep. 142 notes. Her Hat. 10/31/23 _______ 12 step, Adult Children of Alcoholics: https://adultchildren.org/ _______ National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, Hours: Available 24 hours. Languages: English, Spanish. 1-800-273-8255 ____ National Sexual Assault Hotline Hours: Available 24 hours 1-800-656-4673 _____ POD DESCRIPTION: This is The House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. This podcast is intended for entertainment purposes only, and I am a commentator. USE YOUR DISCERNMENT. Language is explicit. Names may or may not be changed, to protect some. Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, LGBTQIA+, recovery, codependency, comedy, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

31 Okt 202320min

Options explored, after hours towards art, scrapped.... Etymology on the one dark word that fits this particular house, late at night. ___ Ep. 140 notes. Air 10/24/23 ______ https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Miasma_theory ________ Deadwood, by David Milch: " It’s place is called Deadwood, a lawless, sordid camp inhabited by gold chasers and hoople heads, dope fiends and gunslingers, craven murderers and even a few honest, hard-working folk. South Dakota, 1876" Greg Cwik • 19 JUN 2019 https://mubi.com/en/notebook/posts/sold-under-sin-david-milch-caps-his-television-masterpiece-with-deadwood-the-movie _______ 12 step, Adult Children of Alcoholics: https://adultchildren.org/ _______ National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, Hours: Available 24 hours. Languages: English, Spanish. 1-800-273-8255 ____ National Sexual Assault Hotline Hours: Available 24 hours 1-800-656-4673 _____ POD DESCRIPTION: This is The House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. This podcast is intended for entertainment purposes only, and I am a commentator. USE YOUR DISCERNMENT. Language is explicit. Names may or may not be changed, to protect some. Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, LGBTQIA+, recovery, codependency, comedy, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

25 Okt 202331min

2 hours of editing tonight.... here's an update ~

24 Okt 20232min

Brick by brick, the new house forms. A distracting neighbor, helps show that easier options are present. Buddhist techniques, which kept Thai boys alive recently, during a monsoon, with little air. Mind bested matter, in this case. The movie Brazil, with 3 different endings, illustrates a soul trapped in two places, same-time-like. _____ Ep. 139 notes. Happy Ending 10/17/23 ______ "The Thai Soccer Team Used Meditation to Help Them Survive" https://www.teenvogue.com/story/the-thai-soccer-team-used-meditation-to-help-them-survive _______ HOW TERRY GILLIAM FOUND A HAPPY ENDING FOR 'BRAZIL' - https://www.nytimes.com/1986/01/19/movies/how-terry-gilliam-found-a-happy-ending-for-brazil.html _______ "Ellen Barkin Tweets “Never Get Into an Elevator Alone With Terry Gilliam” https://www.hollywoodreporter.com/lifestyle/lifestyle-news/ellen-barkin-tweets-never-get-an-elevator-alone-terry-gilliam-1095312/ __________ Armistead Maupin, Tales of the City: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tales_of_the_City The 1st TV series https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tales_of_the_City_(1993_miniseries) ________ 12 step, Adult Children of Alcoholics: https://adultchildren.org/ _______ National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, Hours: Available 24 hours. Languages: English, Spanish. 1-800-273-8255 ____ National Sexual Assault Hotline Hours: Available 24 hours 1-800-656-4673 _____ POD DESCRIPTION: This is The House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. This podcast is intended for entertainment purposes only, and I am a commentator. USE YOUR DISCERNMENT. Language is explicit. Names may or may not be changed, to protect some. Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, LGBTQIA+, recovery, codependency, comedy, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

17 Okt 202327min

Darlene and I move to the bungalow, with my new writing talent, and a secret about women.... The French One shares her truth, with a twist. Armistead Maupin, dishing on Rock Hudson, brings home a familiar hiding place. _____ Ep. 138 notes. Closet. 10/9/23 ______ Armistead Maupin, Tales of the City, the book: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tales_of_the_City The 1st TV series https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tales_of_the_City_(1993_miniseries) ________ "'A friend rang me and said how could I do that to such a beautiful, beautiful man?'" - The Guardian article, 1999, about Armistead Maupin, talking about connection with Rock Hudson, and his closet: https://www.theguardian.com/theguardian/1999/jun/24/features11.g22 _______ 12 step, Adult Children of Alcoholics: https://adultchildren.org/ _______ National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, Hours: Available 24 hours. Languages: English, Spanish. 1-800-273-8255 ____ National Sexual Assault Hotline Hours: Available 24 hours 1-800-656-4673 _____ POD DESCRIPTION: This is The House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. This podcast is intended for entertainment purposes only, and I am a commentator. USE YOUR DISCERNMENT. Language is explicit. Names may or may not be changed, to protect some. Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, LGBTQIA+, recovery, codependency, comedy, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

9 Okt 202327min