Month 2 - Fear of Death
A primitive fear of death might be a root cause of my addiction. I use alcohol and drugs to comfort my fears and insecurities.
17 Dec 202534min
Month 2 - Comparing With my last Sobriety Attempt
I listened some audio journals from my last attempt at quitting THC and compare to how I am doing this time. My last attempt lasted 56 days until relapse.
13 Dec 202526min
Month 1 + Week 3 - Lack of Belonging
Three events made me feel like I dont belong. I notice that this emotion can dominate how I feel about everything. Individual events do not take away all purpose in life. The truth is that there are c...
9 Dec 202520min
Month 1 + Week 2 - Accepting Criticism
Someone from group suggested that I go back and repeat my 12 steps. Initially, that irritated me and I thought defensively. But after considering how I accept criticism in some areas, I realize that I...
4 Dec 202513min
Month 1 + Week 1 - Thanksgiving at My House
We had Thanksgiving at my house this year. Much better to share a meal with friends that want community than chasing what it used to be in childhood. This is the start of holiday season which is fraug...
30 Nov 202547min
Month 1 - Overwhelmed with broken Stuff
Lots of stuff has broken or failed recently. Some things I fixed. Somethings I called for help. I realized that my bad thinking wasn't helping and rational problem-solving was a better approach. Addic...
22 Nov 202518min
Day 29 - Controlling Where to Place My Attention
The modern world has become flooded with information, which benefits me in many ways but there are downsides. The Information Age has come to an end and the world is entering the "Attention Age".
20 Nov 202528min
Day 28 - Lack of Life Force
One major symptom of Sobriety is my lack of Life Force which has become an obstacle to accomplishing chores and physical activity. I call it Life Force because this is different than physical strength...
19 Nov 202520min
