#49 - Crille Rask: Ibogaine, Surf, and Surrender

What if healing wasn’t about fixing what’s broken, but about softening into who you truly are? In this episode of Ibogaine Uncovered, host Talia Eisenberg speaks with Crille Rask, a Swedish designer and creative based in Bali, who came to Beyond seeking depth, clarity, and a new way to love. What he found was a medicine that didn’t take him away from himself, but right into the center.

Crille shares how his experience with Ibogaine opened up deep emotional healing, helped him confront inner chaos, and offered a new, embodied presence in both his relationship and creative life. From powerful visions to profound discomfort, he speaks candidly about anxiety, childhood trauma, and the difference between peak experiences and sustainable change. This is a story about what it means to feel safe in your body and finally be at peace.

Crille Rask is a designer, builder, and multidisciplinary creative living in Bali. With a background in fashion marketing and a passion for architecture, he crafts homes and experiences rooted in beauty, community, and connection. He’s also a devoted partner and inner explorer, navigating the edges of emotional depth and embodied presence.

Timestamps:

• (02:00) – Why come to Ibogaine when life looks good on the outside?
• (04:00) – From therapy to plant medicine: reaching what talk can’t touch
• (06:00) – The inner prison: sitting with self and surfacing old voices
• (09:00) – Childhood waves, panic, and trusting what needs to die
• (11:00) – Journey begins: visuals, memory cards, and felt experience
• (14:00) – Discomfort and doubt: the mind creeps back in
• (17:00) – Grief, fear, and learning to love without a dopamine hit
• (23:00) – Healing the body: breath, softness, and peace
• (27:00) – Brotherhood and breakthrough: witnessing other men cry
• (32:00) – Meditation, AquaRelax, and feeling safe in the womb
• (36:00) – Creativity after chaos: space, stillness, and design
• (41:00) – Loving differently: what integration might look like
• (44:00) – A shared journey: preparing for marriage through Ibogaine