Diary of “Crazy”6 Nov 2022

Diary Entry: The Money VS Resources Meltdown of Second Trimester

As our second trimester is starting and my kids are growing, I’m in need of new and (in general) more resources for them. Starting in a brand new classroom threw me for a loop. I severely underestimated how much money classroom games and resources cost. It was time to get some more resources and kinesthetic options for centers in the classroom but that costs money and at the beginning of the month, that adds a little bit of stress to my already anxious brain. It, also, doesn’t help that I have a hard time asking for help and feel the need to solve the world’s problems on my own. It’s scary and I want to provide my kids with absolutely everything they could ever need but my definition of that is vastly different than my wallets or that is truly necessary. I try my best for these kiddos and my school goes out of their way to do everything they can to create the necessary opportunities for every person that walks in those doors but today my failure side won out and I needed to process. I know I’m not a failure and I’m good at what I do, but some days these darn triggers and my expectations of myself do not line up and get the best of me!!

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Episoder(47)

Diary Entry: Unloading Day instead of unpacking and processing

Trigger Warning!! I’ve been having a hard time the last several weeks and some trauma is reading it’s ugly head making my anxiety have an awesome time. I haven’t felt like talking so today I just need...

26 Feb 202324min

Diary Entry: Gluten Free Check In

Welp… it’s been close to a month and it’s been an adventure. I had a hard time and was feeling a little down on myself recently but I talked with my doctor and have been trying really hard so I decide...

7 Feb 202328min

Diary Entry: Copings Skills

I have been very frustrated with myself for handling some high stressors in my life the last couple of weeks and my year this year is about taking care of myself and fostering relationships so… I was ...

24 Jan 202335min

Diary Entry: Empath and Medication

Today I wanted to share my experiences with taking anxiety medication and depression meds in the past. I had an epiphany recently that I felt like made sense and aligned with the type of person I’m gr...

17 Jan 202340min

Diary Entry: Letting go, healing, and growth mindset

The path to where I’m at has been a long one!! It took me an inordinate amount of time to left go of this pent up anger and begin to heal. I felt like a fraud that people would comment on my positivit...

9 Jan 202332min

Diary Entry: Happy New Year

I fully intended to jump back in by discussing growth and growth mindset and how I realized something I’d done in a past friendship that I could have done better… however! My mouth and soul needed som...

2 Jan 202336min

Diary Entry: Processing (crying) Through a Rough Several of Days

It’s been a rough couple of days. I didn’t want to post tonight but I think I needed to talk through some of my fears and feelings. It’s a lot of crying and some seriously triggering vibes but today’s...

16 Nov 202230min