No Visible Bruises

In this episode, we will talk about the shame and judgment that those who stay in a narcissist relationship suffer from others and from themselves. We will dive deep into the reasons behind the decision to stay in an abusive relationship, and how to be more compassionate towards those who make such decisions.  What You Will Learn In This Episode: - How our protective parts don't know what happiness is - What happens when we hear the phrase ‘Just leave then’ - Safety concerns in case of leaving a narcissistic relationships - How we can help people who decide to stay in abusive relationships - The importance of bringing awareness into your internal protective mechanisms Someone that comes from a place of not feeling worthy is more likely to end up as a codependent in an abusive relationship. In most cases, the fear of leaving that relationship will be greater than their suffering, so they'll choose to stay. Without help, those people can enter the endless cycle of not feeling good enough to leave and, simultaneously, not worthy enough to generate love in their partners.  Resources:  - Join my Facebook group at https://www.facebook.com/groups/thriveafternarcissisticabuse   - Connect with me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/carolinestrawson/

13 Apr 202114min

The third and final interview segment with Sam Vaknin is perhaps the most triggering, as we discuss the concepts of victim, victimhood, and being victimized by a narcissist. We also analyze Sam's view on victimization and victimhood as new social trends and part of the tribalism we live in nowadays.  What You Will Learn In This Episode: - What happened to us is not what we are - Why people idolize, perpetuate, and glamorise being a victim - The danger of the self-styled empaths - How to love yourself, trust your gut, and not abuse your abuser When we grow up hearing things like we are not good enough or our parents find us helpful only as victims, then our self-esteem is low and we understand there is no other way than victimhood to get favourable outcomes from our environment. However, in order to heal, we must allow ourselves to be loved for who we are, and not for what happened to us.  Resources:  - Malignant Self-Love: Narcissism Revisited by Sam Vaknin - Connect with Professor Sam Vaknin on LinkedIn, Instagram, and YouTube - Join my Facebook group at https://www.facebook.com/groups/thriveafternarcissisticabuse   - Connect with me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/carolinestrawson/

6 Apr 202142min

This is part two of the fantastic interview with Professor Sam Vaknin. In this episode we talk about narcissistic abuse from a social perspective, and how we, as society members, deal with abusers and victims. We dive deep into the danger of labelling people, and discuss the idea of fluidity between the roles of victims and abusers.  What You Will Learn In This Episode: - The counterproductive tendency of isolating trait behaviours, labelling and medicalising - Regarding narcissism as a positive adaptation that has helped a child to survive - Are we all a part of a colossal victim community? - The differences in a relationship between narcissists and healthy people, and narcissists and codependents - How the confirmation bias and the saviour mentality affects the victims of narcissist abuse Accepting that many victims are never likely to abandon their abusers, Doctor Vaknin believes that people should be educated on self-defence, on how to create boundaries and react to abusive situations. Both the victim and abuser share the same source - they are children with wounded inner parts, utilising their survival tools.  Resources: -  Trauma and Recovery: The Aftermath of Violence--From Domestic Abuse to Political Terror by Judith Lewis Herman - Malignant Self-Love: Narcissism Revisited by Sam Vaknin - Connect with Professor Sam Vaknin on LinkedIn, Instagram, and YouTube - Join my Facebook group at https://www.facebook.com/groups/thriveafternarcissisticabuse   - Connect with me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/carolinestrawson/

30 Mar 202136min

This episode is the first part of an enlightening interview with Sam Vaknin, Professor of Psychology & Finances at the Southern University of Rostov-on-Don, Russia, PhD in Philosophy and Physics, and author of the book "Malignant Self-Love: Narcissism Revisited."  In this first of a three-episode series, we talked about why the narcissistic abuse experience is different from other abusive relationships, and why each narcissistic abuse story is unique.  What You Will Learn In This Episode: - How it was connecting with narcissistic abuse victims before the internet era - The uniqueness of the narcissistic abuse experience - How narcissists live inside their mind - Why making demands or having expectations threatens a narcissist’s equilibrium  - The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual (DSM) vs. the Psychodynamic Diagnostic Manual (PDM) When Professor Vaknin started working with narcissistic abuse trauma back in 1995, there was no terminology, no words to describe it. One of his first jobs was to coin terms like narcissistic supply, somatic narcissist, cerebral narcissist, and narcissistic abuse itself. He has been studying the subject passionately for over 26 years, helping thousands of people to recover from their trauma.  Resources: - Malignant Self-Love: Narcissism Revisited by Sam Vaknin - Connect with Professor Sam Vaknin on LinkedIn, Instagram, and YouTube - Join my Facebook group at https://www.facebook.com/groups/thriveafternarcissisticabuse   - Connect with me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/carolinestrawson/

23 Mar 202129min

Today, I want to talk about what happens after we break up with a narcissist, what we should expect from them, and how to prevent being affected by what they can do or say to us and our closest friends.  What You Will Learn In This Episode: Safety is your number one priority What to do when our reputation is being shredded by the narcissist The narcissist and their army of flying monkeys What drives narcissists to take action Why falling into a love bombing trap is easier than it looks Our goal is not trying to change or fix the narcissist Breaking up a relationship with a narcissist might lead us to a lonely place if they turn our friends and relatives against us. We must create a robust ecosystem around us, and surround ourselves by the people who believe in us. We need to keep in mind that we are enough, and that we are worthy and lovable regardless of what the narcissist could have said to us or to anyone else about us.  Resources: Join my Facebook group at https://www.facebook.com/groups/thriveafternarcissisticabuse Connect with me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/carolinestrawson/

2 Mar 202118min

This week we are talking about relationships after narcissistic abuse. But to talk about future relationships, we need to look at our past and what we learned about love when we were children.  What You Will Learn In This Episode: The three parts of our brain and what their roles are Where the belief that the world is a dangerous place comes from How to use the knowledge about how our mind works in order to empower ourselves The prominent role of attachment in our perception of what love is The connections between how we felt as children, and how we feel around the narcissist as adults How YOU can break the cycle of narcissistic abuse To ensure a healthy and lasting new relationship, we need to do some inner work, identify our blueprint of what love and connection are, and work on it. If we don't address it, we are at risk of repeating this inter-generational trauma, and possibly passing it onto the next generations.  Resources: Join my Facebook group at https://www.facebook.com/groups/thriveafternarcissisticabuse Connect with me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/carolinestrawson/

23 Feb 202120min

In today's episode, we will talk about future generations and narcissism. We will explore and analyze kids' trauma responses to being with a narcissist and the best ways to help them deal with it. What You Will Learn In This Episode: The importance of breaking the trauma cycle and teaching self-love to our kids Parallel parenting as the best choice for co-parenting with a narcissist The fourth trauma response to narcissistic abuse Why our kids choose to misbehave with us The best response we can offer to our angry children When our kids come back to us aggressive or angry, we must see them through the trauma-informed lens. We need to understand them, show them love and compassion, be supportive and make them feel that we see them and hear them. Our kids misbehave with us because we are their anchor. We must be aware of that and build our relationship with them from that place.  Resources: Join my Facebook group at https://www.facebook.com/groups/thriveafternarcissisticabuse  Connect with me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/carolinestrawson/

16 Feb 202117min

This episode is about the controversy around the diagnosis of a narcissist and its medicalisation. Should narcissists be medicalised? And if they should, how does it affect those who've been involved with a narcissist? What You Will Learn In This Episode: The problem with medicalisation of a certain problem Why Complex PTSD doesn't go away with a sense of retribution The beauty of hindsight in the context of a relationship with a narcissist Why moving forward knowing the narcissist won't change is a powerful step How narcissism has a lot more traits than the 9 from the DSM As a society, we are conditioned to look at the symptoms and there is not much space for considering the root cause. That's what is happening with narcissists as well. The root cause gets overlooked, and the abuse suffered by the narcissist's victims remains unacknowledged. But the solution might lie in looking at narcissists through the trauma lens.  Resources: Join my Facebook group at https://www.facebook.com/groups/thriveafternarcissisticabuse  Connect with me on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/carolinestrawson/

9 Feb 202124min