Why Pulling Harder Against Insomnia Keeps You Stuck

Picture this.

You're standing at the edge of a bottomless pit. On the other side stands a monster, huge, terrifying, impossibly strong.

A rope stretches across the pit between you, and you're both pulling with everything you have.

This is the Insomnia Monster. And the harder you pull, the harder it pulls back.

You're terrified of falling in, so you dig in your heels and pull harder.

You think: if I could just pull hard enough, the monster would tumble into the pit, my distress would vanish, and I could finally sleep.

But no matter how hard you try, you can't win. You're locked in a brutal stalemate, leaving you exhausted.

This metaphor captures something essential about insomnia. But to understand why it matters, we need to talk about two kinds of pain.

Clean pain vs. dirty pain

This idea comes from Acceptance and Commitment Therapy, and it's one of the most useful frameworks you'll ever learn for insomnia.

Clean pain is the unavoidable pain of being human. The fatigue of a poor night. The sadness of disappointment. The anxiety that comes with uncertainty.

These feelings are real, and they're a natural part of life. You can't eliminate them, and you don't need to.

Dirty pain is different. It's the suffering we pile on top of clean pain through our reactions.

Through our response, we take the original difficulty and amplify it into something far more distressing.

Dirty pain shows up in many familiar ways:

• It's desperately struggling against your thoughts and feelings.
• It's evaluating your situation in catastrophic terms.
• It's never questioning the story you're telling yourself.
• It's letting difficult feelings keep you from what matters.
• It's berating yourself when you're already hurting.
• And it's becoming so used to misery that you struggle to experience anything else.

Here's why this matters so much: a substantial portion of your emotional distress is dirty pain.

Which means it's within your power to reduce.

Much of the suffering of insomnia doesn't come from the lack of sleep itself. It comes from how we react to it.

So what do you do with the monster?

Back to the tug-of-war. You're pulling and pulling, and you cannot win. The monster is too strong.

So what can you do?

You drop the rope.

You don't have to play the game. The monster might still be standing there on the other side of the pit, but you don't have to fight it.

The moment you drop the rope and stop struggling against what you can't control, you start to suffer less. You start to reclaim your life.

This applies to both the struggle at night and the struggle against daytime distress.

And it points to something powerful: acceptance dramatically lowers the stakes of sleep. When you're not locked in a fight to the death every night, falling asleep gets a whole lot easier.

An exercise: dropping the rope

Here's a way to actually feel what this is like.

Take a breath and notice what's happening in your experience right now.

You might close your eyes.

Become aware of any unpleasant thoughts, feelings, or sensations, perhaps ones tied to your sleep. Observe it, and notice the ways you've been struggling against it.

Now bring to mind the image of the tug-of-war. See if you can feel that strain in your body, the pulling, the tension, the effort.

Then imagine dropping the rope. Actually picture it falling from your hands.

As you do, let go of the struggle against that difficult thought or feeling. Take a deep breath in, and as you exhale, release any tension you're holding.

Notice any shift toward ease. The difficult thing may still be there, but now there's room for it to exist without you having to fight it. Stay with that spaciousness for a minute.

You can return to this anytime. It won't magically make you calm or happy. But it will show your body and mind what it feels like to stop fighting, and that's where relief begins.

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To peaceful sleep,

Ivo at End Insomnia

Why should you listen to me?

I recovered from insomnia after 5 brutal years of suffering. I've now coached 100s like you to end their insomnia for good, 100% naturally, by fixing the root cause - hyperarousal.