What the darkness taught me about God

I’ve been thinking a lot about my relationship with God. I believe in God. I believe in something greater. But I’ve realized that believing in God and actually having a relationship with God are two different things for me. In this episode, I get honest about growing up without religion, my complicated history with Christianity, the moments in my life that have felt undeniably spiritual, and why I think I’ve sometimes avoided a deeper relationship with God. I talk about light and dark, pleasure and addiction, surrender, serendipity, and the idea that our stories may be the place where we see something greater working through us. I also talk about my house burning down, starting over in Costa Rica, the unexpected things that have happened since, and how those experiences have changed the way I see my life and my relationship with God. I share why I’ve started looking at my story differently and why I think making sense of the painful parts of our lives can help us move from a dark place toward the light. I talk about: ● Why I believe in God but still struggle with my relationship with God. ● Growing up without religion and my complicated relationship with Christianity. ● Why I sometimes felt like I was performing rather than genuinely worshipping. ● The moments in my life that have felt like undeniable “God moments.” ● Why I see light and dark as two different paths we can move toward. ● How pleasure, addiction, and unhealthy choices can pull us toward darkness. ● Why I think serendipity can be a form of light. ● How I’ve started seeing the events in my life as part of a larger story. ● What my house burning down taught me about surrender and starting over. ● Why I believe our story may be the most valuable thing we ever own. ● How looking back at trauma and painful experiences can help us understand our story. ● Why I’m beginning to wonder if this next chapter of my life is about developing a better relationship with God. 🎙️ Connect with me: 📘 My latest book, Love Hard On Purpose. Toss the blueprints. Build something honest. HEREMy book publishing company: Soulprint https://www.soulprintmedia.co 📘 Read my book in progress Sh*t Your Therapist Would Never Tell You on my SubStack ⁠HERE⁠ If you’re ready for deeper work, the Secure Self course is available HERE Order my book, Break Up. On Purpose,⁠⁠ ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ HERE⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Follow on Instagram⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ HERE⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Find out more HERE⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices