16. Queens that Read, Love that Lingers

Outside your door, the feral grunts from nowhere.... after years, I found the literal source. Funnier than I thought... Then, on second thought, I review the past podcast #72, with more responsibility. We run the RAIN process, from Tara Brach, on my last recorded episode here. Turns out, I can be kinder. _________ NOTES: _____ The moan: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XmlZv-UA2zg _____ Tara Brach. RAIN concept acronym: Recognize; Allow; Investigate; Nurture. https://www.tarabrach.com/rain/ ____ [Will expand on this topic more, in a future podcast] Stephanie Wittels Wachs - author, podcaster. Her brother is named Harris. Harris was lost to opoid /heroin addiction, and was an actor on Parks and Rec, professional comedian, and author himself. Harris brough the phrase "Humble Brag" into our language. Last Day - podcast. This ep = Trauma - Dr Gabor Mate https://lemonadamedia.com/podcast/trauma-with-dr-gabor-mate/ "Everything is Horrible and Wonderful - A Tragicomic Memoir of Genius, Heroin, Love, and Loss" https://www.amazon.com/Everything-Horrible-Wonderful-Tragicomic-Memoir/dp/1492664103 ____________ POD DESCRIPTION: This is The House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. This podcast is intended for entertainment purposes only, and I am a commentator. Use your discernment. Language is explicit. Names may or may not be changed, to protect some. Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, LGBTQIA+, recovery, codependency, comedy, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

25 Juni 202230min

Losing static from a music scene local, known through a charismatic couple, - and yet proved slightly sinister. BDSM and kink feature on this episode [sexually explicit!], along with that charming couple, that everyone loves to look at. What happens when they invite you, to bed.... #BDSM #kink ________ NOTE: due to editing out people's names, to protect anonymity - audio is choppy, in the last 5 minutes. Topics: Bdsm, kink, socio economic privilege, heterosexual couple privilege, unicorn hunting. Alberta Rose theater is mentioned [I said, "Alberta Ross" in the recording] ____________ POD DESCRIPTION: This is The House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. This podcast is intended for entertainment purposes only, and I am a commentator. Use your discernment. Language is explicit. Names may or may not be changed, to protect some. Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, LGBTQIA+, recovery, codependency, comedy, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

18 Juni 202259min

Compelled to watch, the newest Netflix feast on Mormons - brings emotional static here, but I'll push on through. Rulon Jeffs, Warren, Wallace, many women and survivors. Specific tells for predation, which happened in my family - are displayed with the Sweet Creek clan. Geographic isolation, being one. Maybe being jangly and present, are a better option, for some. _________ NOTES: ep 71 - Obey - 6/11/2022: "Keep Sweet, Pray and Obey" - director Rachel Dretzin. 2022: https://www.netflix.com/title/81292539 ______ National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, Hours: Available 24 hours. Languages: English, Spanish. 1-800-273-8255 National Sexual Assault Hotline Hours: Available 24 hours 1-800-656-4673 ____________ POD DESCRIPTION: This is The House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. This podcast is intended for entertainment purposes only, and I am a commentator. Use your discernment. Language is explicit. Names may or may not be changed, to protect some. Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, LGBTQIA+, recovery, codependency, comedy, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

11 Juni 202254min

70. Milk ______________________ NOTES: rec 6/5/22, Ep. 70 - National Sexual Assault Hotline Hours: Available 24 hours 1-800-656-4673 National Suicide Prevention Lifeline Hours: Available 24 hours. 800-273-82551 _____________ POD DESCRIPTION: This is The House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. I may be available for chats or one on one, my email has been shared in prior episodes. This podcast is intended for entertainment purposes only, and I am a commentator. Use your discernment. Language is explicit. Names may or may not be changed, to protect some. Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, LGBTQIA+, recovery, codependency, comedy, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street

5 Juni 202238min

"May the Lord bless you and keep you - " Mom and I felt better, listening to this. Robert H. Schuller brought trinkets of crystal, to our home, in trade for mom's meager money, and faith. Deep dive into Schuller, positive thinking, his industry and later bankruptcy, selling the Crystal Cathedral to the Catholics.... His homophobia, hope, and how televangelism, and faith in God ~ roosted long, in our post Valencia ~ house. ______________________ NOTES: rec 5/28/22, Ep. 69 - Robert H. Schuller - A&E, Biography, 1998. [could not find original publication source, this link shows the content, from a fan youtube channel] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U4nYEf8F-9g _________ Robert H. Schuller - Christian televangelist, pastor, motivational speaker, and author. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Robert_Schuller _________ "End of an era for Crystal Cathedral" - CBS - 2012 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lQ4mDo2w0Xk _________ Bible, book of Numbers 6:24-26 - "The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make his face shine on you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace." __________ National Sexual Assault Hotline Hours: Available 24 hours 1-800-656-4673 National Suicide Prevention Lifeline Hours: Available 24 hours. 800-273-82551 _____________ POD DESCRIPTION: This is The House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. This podcast is intended for entertainment purposes only, and I am a commentator. Use your discernment. Language is explicit. Names may or may not be changed, to protect some. Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, LGBTQIA+, recovery, codependency, comedy, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

29 Maj 202252min

This week, mom's accidental joyride at the gas station. Also, adjusting my "vibrational offering" to the universe, via one technique of focus. A winged bat, is involved. Notes: The Judds, "Beautiful Star of Bethlehem" - with Bob Hope, 1993: [Note: after Naomi was sick, and retired, they frequently held hands if they performed again, while performing together. Love, to steady each other, it's nice. Their hair is very large in this video, and fantastic] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rD_UEfMzlYw _____________ POD DESCRIPTION: This is The House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. This podcast is intended for entertainment purposes only, and I am a commentator. Use your discernment. Language is explicit. Names may or may not be changed, to protect some. Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, LGBTQIA+, recovery, codependency, comedy, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

22 Maj 202229min

Rachel Sophia speaks this week, about the ghost she saw, at the House on Valencia Street. We learn new coincidence, even now. And - Darlene loved The Judds, and we lost Naomi this week. Their survival, strength, and truth, humble me. Naomi Judd, Wynonna and Ashley are here this week. ______ NOTES: 5/14/22 - will update notes with book references, etc, within the week. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline, Hours: Available 24 hours. Languages: English, Spanish. 1-800-273-8255 National Sexual Assault Hotline Hours: Available 24 hours 1-800-656-4673 Ashley Judd. Author. All That Is Bitter And Sweet. https://www.amazon.com/All-That-Bitter-Sweet-Memoir-ebook/dp/B004C43FXY/ Naomi Judd. Author. River of Time. https://www.amazon.com/River-Time-Descent-Depression-Emerged-ebook/dp/B01DSTTRRG/ Wynonna Judd. Author. Coming Home to Myself. https://www.amazon.com/Coming-Home-Myself-Wynonna-Judd-ebook/dp/B001JTPXRG/ The Judds. Album , Rocking with the Rhythm of the Rain. https://amazon.com/music/player/albums/B0013SG5FW _____________ POD DESCRIPTION: This is The House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. This podcast is intended for entertainment purposes only, and I am a commentator. Use your discernment. Language is explicit. Names may or may not be changed, to protect some. Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, LGBTQIA+, recovery, codependency, comedy, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

14 Maj 202254min

Mom's Day tomorrow, feeling happy to have known Darlene. Rachel Sophia and I talk this week, thinking of mom. And international bunnies, bigger than they should have been. ______ POD DESCRIPTION: This is The House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. This podcast is intended for entertainment purposes only, and I am a commentator. Use your discernment. Language is explicit. Names may or may not be changed, to protect some. Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, LGBTQIA+, recovery, codependency, comedy, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

8 Maj 202223min