25. Duck Pond

A friend with a camera, shows me the House again. The duck pond, too. The present residence, may well be best, left alone... How to clock predators preemptively, by diagramming their words. Predators repeat patterns. A lot of them. Lastly, I spill chia seeds, and share Tara Brach's RAIN tools, to get present. While cussing. A lot.
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REFERENCES {this is a living document, and be revised later}:

~22 minutes in, I refer to "Judith before Eve." In this particular context, I meant Lilith. The other Judith references are contextually accurate.
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Artemisia Gentileschi. Artist, painter, Baroque. From the New Yorker, "it is the first time in which sexual predation is depicted from the point of view of the predated.":
https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2020/10/05/a-fuller-picture-of-artemisia-gentileschi
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Tara Brach. RAIN concept acronym: Recognize; Allow; Investigate; Nurture.

https://www.tarabrach.com/rain/
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Chia Seeds.

https://www.hsph.harvard.edu/nutritionsource/food-features/chia-seeds/
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Red flags for empathy disorder: Britney's father - textbook, language wise.

1. Faux Apology;
2. Blame someone else, illogically
[target different race, gender, socio-economic demographic].

Correlating behaviors:

- "Word Salad" response/
- Contradictory emotional responses ["I miss her very much", response to "you're a sadist"]/
- "Willfully Ignorant" script/
- Denial/
- Narcissistic Supply motivated/
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Boundaries with texting: Pause if another forces you to discuss important negotiations, via text. You can say no.
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"Never underestimate the power of denial." - American Beauty
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Doctor Ramani - Empathy disorder expert

https://www.youtube.com/user/DoctorRamanDurvasula
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Purple leaf willowherb:

https://www.minnesotawildflowers.info/flower/purple-leaf-willowherb
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POD DESCRIPTION:

This is the House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me.

I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention.

Language is explicit, Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, recovery, codependency, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.