185. Hiatus

This is a trailer, for my podcast, The House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. Language is explicit, Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, recovery, codependency, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

25 Sep 202153s

A warm summer concert, dance & drums mingling. One example of how romantic addiction, impacts just being present, with those we love. Mom sung strong music, and loved voice in others. I praise, and fumble, with a favorite band. Secrets to why they funded University for one sister, yet not the other. Also, one fave rockstar writes a book, on how he healed his own sexual addiction. ______ REFERENCES: Lizzo, with Cardi B. Rumors. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4P9XUrniiK4 ____ John Bradshaw. Expert on the alcoholic dysfunctional family. His concept of the mobile, and family as metaphor. "Author, TV Host, PBS, Workshop Leader, Healer and Elder." On: The Family: - the book: https://www.amazon.com/Bradshaw-Family-Creating-Solid-Self-Esteem-ebook/dp/B00AM1UAWU/ref=sr_1_1?dchild=1&keywords=john+bradshaw+on+the+family+kindle&qid=1631931008&sr=8-1 On: The Family - the PBS video series, Part 1: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9PjAXINemG4 _____ What those private Catholic university degrees, cost my sister. And me. My daddy's mother, emerges. _____ CORRECTION: I say Billy Elliot at one point. I mean Billy Porter, from POSE. _____ Afro Celt Sound System: 2 Grammy nominations to date. Members bios: N’Faly Kouyaté: As the son of the famous “Konkoba” Kabinet Kouyaté from Guinea, he was traditionally brought up as a Djeli (Griot), an ambassador of the Mandingo culture. The Griot (which means in his language Mandinka ‘Blood of the Society’ because they are everywhere like the blood in the body) has been a life library, history teller, counsellor of the King and the population. Simon Emmerson: Simon has been a stalwart of the London music scene since 1978. In 1991 Simon went to Senegal to produce 3 tracks on Baaba Maal’s Lam Toro album. This was a life changing experience, Simon felt the connection between African and Celtic music in Senegal. JOHNNY KALSI: Johnny is a self taught dhol drum master and has been playing the dhol for over 20 years. founder of the Dhol Foundation. https://www.afroceltsoundsystem.org.uk/ ____________ Romantic Relationship addiction: My mother rehabbed at The Meadows for this issue. Here is their website, offering more information about this issue: https://www.themeadows.com/addiction-treatment/love-addiction/ __________ Oregon Country Fair: 10K+ visitors daily, out in a field, off the beaten path. Topless? Cannabis? Yep... https://www.oregoncountryfair.org/ _________ Rick Springfield, on topic of sexual addiction. "Late, Late at Night" autobiography. http://latelateatnight.com/ _________ POD DESCRIPTION: This is the House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. Language is explicit, Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, recovery, codependency, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

18 Sep 202132min

This week, I take a break from the grind... And say hello. Episodes are in the edit can.... lots of mulling and sitting, watching birds. Thanks for your patience, until next ep. _____ POD DESCRIPTION: This is the House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. Language is explicit, Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, recovery, codependency, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

11 Sep 20211min

Journalists bring the 5 W's to talk words on molested Mormon kids. This adult kid, has thoughts, from the inside of the beast. A scene from the series "POSE", illustrates what listening, felt like. How healing happens better together, when we adjust a bit. ____ REFERENCES: Speculative conclusions may be updated, with further information. _____ Wicked Words podcast, Exactly Right Media, Kate Winkler-Dawson https://www.exactlyrightmedia.com/ "Katy Vine: Warren Jeffs, the Polygamous Prophet" https://omny.fm/shows/tenfold-more-wicked/katy-vine-warren-jeffs-the-polygamous-prophet [Kate Winkler Dawson: As of 2017, identifies as married, LGBTQA+, mother of 2+ children. Presented race may be Caucasian. Presented socioeconomic level - Published Penguin Books author. katewinklerdawson.com ] [Katy Vine: As of 2020, identifies as married, heterosexual, mother of 2+ children. Presented: race may be Caucasian. socioeconomic level = Executive Editor, Texas Monthly, Austin, TX {Bought in 2019, by billionaire Randa Duncan Williams}. She has published articles on racial injustice & education. https://twitter.com/katy_vine?lang=en ] [Audio correction: FLDS, The F is "Fundamental" here, more so than "Former"] _____ The Mormon church - re: $40 billion mentioned in audio. Clarification: that's just stock holdings, the entire worth, documented here: "The Mormon Church Amassed $100 Billion. It Was the Best-Kept Secret in the Investment World." - Wall Street Journal. Feb. 8, 2020. https://www.wsj.com/articles/the-mormon-church-amassed-100-billion-it-was-the-best-kept-secret-in-the-investment-world-11581138011 _____ POSE series, FX, now on Netflix. Starring Mj Rodriguez, Billy Porter, Dominique Jackson: https://www.netflix.com/title/80241986 _______ Greg Proops, comedian. Podcast "Smartest Man in the World" - Jennifer, co host. https://www.gregproops.com/blog/smartest-man-in-the-world-podcast/ _______ Recently, a woman in my vicinity was killed, by a Caucasian male, committing femicide. Research, brought me this article. Difficult, also informing. "Restraining orders among victims of intimate partner homicide" https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/18523113/ _______ Patton Oswalt, Comedian. One of my very favorite comedians, ever. His albums have been memorized... https://pattonoswalt.com/ _____ Stephen Colbert, comedian. https://twitter.com/StephenAtHome _____ POD DESCRIPTION: This is the House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. Language is explicit, Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, recovery, codependency, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

4 Sep 202155min

A few men loved my mother. One was better than the rest. Today we discuss the Good Stepdad. I compare him to another love of mom's, the First Comedian. My preference, is obvious. Also, a simple acronym - may feel like a tool of suppression, to the survivor. Lastly, how I find hope, in these hard times. _____ REFERENCES: Don McLean, Empty Chairs: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sDjvPFg9B7Q Don McLean, Babylon: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4bnhhbV34nI Lyrics to Babylon, quote from Bible, Psalm 137: "1 By the rivers of Babylon we sat and wept when we remembered Zion." The arrangement is from the 1700s, by Philip Haye. ______ RE: Silencing survivors, using mechanical tools. Example: Acronyms in our court system documents, refer to "Child Sexual Abuse" as "CSA" [while comparable crimes, may not be acronymed in same manner, from what I've witnessed] - the placeholding use of acronyms in this context, feels like denial, to this survivor. That choice seems to comfort the non-raped participants, rather than the survivor, in choice, from my perspective. Salient comparative reference below, with conditions. Comedian Louis C.K. riff, "The N Word" - "You're making me say it, in my head. The shitty words you want to say. Why don't *YOU* say it instead, and take responsibility." [NOTE: Louis C.K. is a gifted comedian, AND 5+ people acknowledge his own sexual misconduct. Also, race privilege may be issue, with this particular riff. At the House here, I attempt to acknowledge sometimes multiple feelings, truths.] https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uqwj--wGEgY ____ POD DESCRIPTION: This is the House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. Language is explicit, Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, recovery, codependency, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

28 Aug 202130min

Turns out, the naked girl in red rose pedals, has a different take, on American Beauty. Mena Suvari's got a new memoir, sharing her voice, bringing complex truth, to a comfortable tale. Her present strength, inspires. Also, paths to forgiving our heroes, turned monster, with truth. _____ REFERENCES: Anchor is my podcast home, and your support really makes a difference. https://anchor.fm/mohmah _____ "American Beauty" - movie, 6+ Academy Awards, BAFTA Awards too. Written by Alan Ball, directed by Sam Mendes, starring Mena Suvari. Here, Roger Ebert {Pulitzer Prize winning author} reviews the movie: https://www.rogerebert.com/reviews/american-beauty-1999 _____ Mena Suvari, winner of BAFTA and Screen Actors Guild Awards, in her voice: Her new book, "The Great Peace: A Memoir" - published July 2021: https://www.amazon.com/Great-Peace-Memoir-Mena-Suvari/dp/0306874520 ____ "‘The Dark Part of My Life’: 5 Takeaways From Mena Suvari’s Book" - New York Times: https://www.nytimes.com/2021/07/27/books/mena-suvari-book-great-peace.html ______ "Mena Suvari Book Signing & Interview | The Great Peace" - Youtube, LiveSigning channel, July 2021. Actress Thora Birch interviews Mena Suvari: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GC4Ue2uG5A4 ______ Philosopher Carol Gilligan, "In a Different Voice: Psychological Theory and Women’s Development" https://www.amazon.com/Different-Voice-Psychological-Theory-Development/dp/0674970969 ____ Phallocentric: I offer one definition , from a Women's Studies Class in the past. Here is another: "centered on or emphasizing the masculine viewpoint" https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/phallocentric ____ CORRECTIONS: American Beauty: It was gardening shears and gardening *clogs*! Not gloves. I stand corrected. ____ Mary Trump interview, The View. Host Ms. McCain is noticeably absent, August 2021: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AkgZzfEOqn8 ____ "Karen" archetype: Gloria Steinem talked to Yahoo Entertainment editor, on her view of the K word, in Sept. 2020. " I definitely think the Karen thing is sexist." The interview: https://www.yahoo.com/now/gloria-steinem-julie-taymor-karen-meme-sexist-162810020.html ____ ADDENDUM section, introduced. Summer nights at a college bar, with a submissive bouncer. ____ POD DESCRIPTION: This is the House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. Language is explicit, Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, recovery, codependency, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

21 Aug 202152min

Owls can be heard outside my window, while recording this eve. "The Bus Driver" comes to visit his daughter, through me. He had things to share, with my Polish friend. The strongest being - love. _____ REFERENCES: Anchor is my podcast home, and your support really makes a difference. https://anchor.fm/mohmah _____ Owl of Athena https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Owl_of_Athena _____ Sappho. The Brothers Poem https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Brothers_Poem _____ POD DESCRIPTION: This is the House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. Language is explicit, Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, recovery, codependency, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

14 Aug 202129min

What predators do, is a focus of this series. Teachers, help. One is Rebecca Zung, attorney. I share some of her skilled truth, here. Also, Gaslight the movie, offers insight. Lastly, I tearfully share the real reason why, my family had to move, to the House on Valencia Street. Anchor is my podcast home, and your support really makes a difference. https://anchor.fm/mohmah _____ REFERENCES: Rebecca Zung, licensed attorney, expert on empathy disordered behavior: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCnhT4fBE1OWOn7c0Quxdf4w https://www.rebeccazung.com/ CORRECTION: I stated her Youtube numbers incorrectly: Today, her channel has 182K followers, 8/7/21. ____ Postpartum depression. Example possibly: Britney Spears shaves head publicly, after recently bearing a child. https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/postpartum-depression/symptoms-causes/syc-20376617 ______ Predator / Empathy disorder traits. Example: Gifts. They may view the relationship transactionally. Look for gifting patterns. Overall Behaviors: - Love bombing; - devaluing; - discarding; - hoovering _____ Empathy disorder definition: "Empathy is the capacity to think and feel oneself into the inner life of another person. " https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/intense-emotions-and-strong-feelings/202001/do-narcissists-actually-lack-empathy _____ Gaslight movie. 1940 https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gaslight_(1940_film) _____ Doctor Ramani, licensed clinical psychologist, her Youtube Channel https://www.youtube.com/user/DoctorRamanDurvasula Zung and Ramani collaborate together: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o2iMpIVE6LM _____ Self Parenting example. ~23 min. "Baby Me" This technique is learned in a few disciplines of thought. One reference: https://adultchildren.org/newcomer/becoming-your-own-loving-parent/ _____ Tara Brach, Buddhist teacher, author: https://www.tarabrach.com/about/ _____ POD DESCRIPTION: This is the House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. Language is explicit, Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, recovery, codependency, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

7 Aug 202129min