185. Hiatus

Laughing at her own expense, was a hobby of Mom's, perhaps a learned behavior. We swim at the Municipal Pool today. Chivalric flirtation between my mother, and one particular swimmer. Life in an agricultural town. Money & violence, hidden like. Let's spot the predators, before they spot us. Trying to leave a predator, who's your boss at work. Police in Walla Walla, and the levels of safety, they kept, some of us ... stuck in. _____ REFERENCES: Pictures taken at the House, bring up murmurs. Municipal pool memories. Predators sometimes like a swimming pool in their yard, like my foster family. Be aware. _____ "Michael Jackson: A Quarter-Century Of Sexual Abuse Allegations" [NPR article detailing many people, many voices] https://www.npr.org/2019/03/05/699995484/michael-jackson-a-quarter-century-of-sexual-abuse-allegations _____ Abuse survivors have unusual patterns sometimes, before therapy. Multiple marriages, may be one pattern. Or - Christ "chastity rings" for daughters in conservative churches, as one sister, chose for her children, less than 20 miles from where I type this... _____ Mikey the alien, from the movie "Men In Black"... when he puffs up his back... kinda looks like her feet. _____ POD DESCRIPTION: This is the House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. Language is explicit, Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, recovery, codependency, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

1 Aug 202129min

A friend with a camera, shows me the House again. The duck pond, too. The present residence, may well be best, left alone... How to clock predators preemptively, by diagramming their words. Predators repeat patterns. A lot of them. Lastly, I spill chia seeds, and share Tara Brach's RAIN tools, to get present. While cussing. A lot. _____ REFERENCES {this is a living document, and be revised later}: ~22 minutes in, I refer to "Judith before Eve." In this particular context, I meant Lilith. The other Judith references are contextually accurate. _____ Artemisia Gentileschi. Artist, painter, Baroque. From the New Yorker, "it is the first time in which sexual predation is depicted from the point of view of the predated.": https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2020/10/05/a-fuller-picture-of-artemisia-gentileschi _____ Tara Brach. RAIN concept acronym: Recognize; Allow; Investigate; Nurture. https://www.tarabrach.com/rain/ _____ Chia Seeds. https://www.hsph.harvard.edu/nutritionsource/food-features/chia-seeds/ ____ Red flags for empathy disorder: Britney's father - textbook, language wise. 1. Faux Apology; 2. Blame someone else, illogically [target different race, gender, socio-economic demographic]. Correlating behaviors: - "Word Salad" response/ - Contradictory emotional responses ["I miss her very much", response to "you're a sadist"]/ - "Willfully Ignorant" script/ - Denial/ - Narcissistic Supply motivated/ ____ Boundaries with texting: Pause if another forces you to discuss important negotiations, via text. You can say no. _____ "Never underestimate the power of denial." - American Beauty ____ Doctor Ramani - Empathy disorder expert https://www.youtube.com/user/DoctorRamanDurvasula ____ Purple leaf willowherb: https://www.minnesotawildflowers.info/flower/purple-leaf-willowherb _____ POD DESCRIPTION: This is the House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. Language is explicit, Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, recovery, codependency, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

25 Juli 20211h 2min

"The man to the left." - Sometimes psychic ability gives you pointers, but no conclusion, thus you're left to figure it out. I share a recent evening, deep in warm summer, where spirit offered notice. We find out what happened after. I round out this pod with Artemisia Gentileschi, & set course for more. This is a volunteer organization. Anchor.fm is my home base, and way to connect with me. Sponsorship is an option, and your help really makes a difference. https://anchor.fm/mohmah _____________ REFERENCES {a fluid document and may be updated over time}: Sherman Alexie. Author, grew up around Spokane, WA. "The Absolutely True Diary of a Part-Time Indian" is a great book, and shares what poverty feels like, and how we survive it, & much more. https://www.amazon.com/Absolutely-True-Diary-Part-Time-Indian-ebook/dp/B006T2O8TW/ref=tmm_kin_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=&sr= _____ Body Heat. Kathleen Turner, William Hurt. _____ Puzzle pieces with psychic stuff. Yoga premonition: The man to the left. _____ Tibetan singing bowl. Here is an intro on youtube, from YoWangdu Experience Tibet channel: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wHZhgUuJBfM _____ Social Anxiety disorder. Symptoms, and actions to manage the symptoms. Pounding heart, etc. _____ On version of on "Hidden Life of Trees" "How trees talk to each other" - 30+ year Forestry researcher Suzanne Simard shares her TED talk here, "trees talk, often and over vast distances." https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Un2yBgIAxYs _____ Empathy disorder scripts: Love Bombing, marriage offer in 1 month dating... Boundary issues. _____ The Garden of Earthly Delights, Hieronymus Bosch. Artist. https://www.britannica.com/topic/The-Garden-of-Earthly-Delights-by-Bosch _____________ Artemesia Gentileschi. Artist. One take, from the New Yorker, "it is the first time in which sexual predation is depicted from the point of view of the predated.": https://www.newyorker.com/magazine/2020/10/05/a-fuller-picture-of-artemisia-gentileschi ______ POD DESCRIPTION: This is the House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. Language is explicit, Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, recovery, codependency, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

18 Juli 202129min

23. Our demons, can kill us, if we let them. Chris Farley & Andy Dick shared time, and Andy shares tears & truth, about a very important book. An old high school friend, confirm the hauntings. And this month, a close friend stands next to the House on Valencia street, with a camera, and a curious heart. ____________ REFERENCES: July 3, 2021. Heatwave, still healing. Canada, BC - 500+ people dead. Oregon - 100+ dead. Corrections corner: Chris Farley, Andy Dick. Addiction story. The Book. ______ Chris Farley - Comedian. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chris_Farley _____ Andy Dick - Comedian, LGBTQA+ person, like me. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Andy_Dick _____ 12 steps: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Twelve-step_program ______ Georgia Hardstark of My Favorite Murder podcast - Antabuse - pill to stop drinking ______ A close friend takes a look at the Valencia Street house, takes pictures. The present occupants have been there years. Have they seen the ghosts? Do they sense them? ______ What my childhood friend had to say, about how haunted, the Valencia street house is. ______ Mt. St. Helens Ash at Mildred's. {Pompeii murmurs} ______ POD DESCRIPTION: This is the House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. Language is explicit, Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, recovery, codependency, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

11 Juli 202135min

Crispy critter fried by a Heat Dome from hell, we talk judges, social workers, custody and such. Britney's share in court, recently, triggers complex feels. Municipal pool murmurs get started. I-84 memories too. ____________ REFERENCES: Heatwave, mid stride. 108 degrees [gonna get hotter!] Municipal Pool Emancipation/Courts - this foster kid _________ Risk Podcast, Kevin Allison. LGBTQA+ . Have seen live shows of this, in Portland: http://risk-show.com/ __________ Thunder Jackson, newer musician. https://www.thunderjackson.com/ Fave Thunder Jackson song - Guilty Party: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dtsJNK301Qw __________ Beauty in art - Concepts: The Golden Ratio, The Rule of Thirds. [difficult to find a good global link with this, may update later] Pythagoras, how to measure beauty, Human Face: 1:1.618 is the ratio. BBC special: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mVVroi8q0Y0 __________ Chris Farley - Comedian: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chris_Farley _________ Andy Dick - Comedian, LGBTQA+ person, like me: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Andy_Dick _________ Donald Glover, aka Childish Gambino, Renaissance man: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Donald_Glover ______ Britney Spears: https://www.instagram.com/britneyspears/?hl=en ________ Columbia Gorge Sorting onions, Walla Walla, summer work. ______ POD DESCRIPTION: This is the House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. Language is explicit, Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, recovery, codependency, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

4 Juli 202139min

Ep. 21. A poltergeist makes itself known, in my house on Valencia Street. A ghost wakes someone up. Also, if we live through these unexplained occurrences... how do these ghosts exist, & sometimes say hello? Lastly, I bring my love for ancestors, here. ______ REFERENCE NOTES [links are mostly wiki/amazon, seek more if needed]: Somewhere In Time: concept: old house, different times, somehow meet. ______ Wayne Dyer, Author, "I Am" / {candles for meditation} https://www.drwaynedyer.com/ _______ Robert Frost, Author "The Road Not Taken" https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Road_Not_Taken _______ Topic: Mobius strip, Infinity symbol. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Infinity_symbol ________ Scott Peck, Author "The Road Less Traveled" https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B0078XGEK2/ref=dbs_a_def_rwt_bibl_vppi_i0 _________ Richard Bach, Author - Jonathan Livington Seagull, Bridge Across Forever, and One. https://www.amazon.com/One-Novel-Richard-Bach/dp/044020562X/ref=sr_1_1?dchild=1&keywords=richard+bach+one&qid=1624719563&s=books&sr=1-1 Golden ribbons of light, metaphor for different simultaneous realities. ________ Memory: Ghost slap, the French One. Woken up out of a dead sleep, by a slap in the face. _____ Tara Brach, Author, teacher, Buddhist https://www.tarabrach.com/ ______ Carl Sagan. Author, "Contact" https://www.amazon.com/Contact-Novel-Carl-Sagan/dp/1501197983 ______ POD DESCRIPTION: This is the House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. Language is explicit, Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, recovery, codependency, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

27 Juni 202130min

The 110 camera, caught glimpses, of life on Valencia street. Secret pictures, become known. What was the consequence? Also corrections - getting the Gorgons right, in Medusa's myth. Options for PTSD days, poverty, and ways to get through, when resources are scarce. _____________ REFERENCES: {Lots of wiki links this ep; check other sources too} __________ My audio quality has issues (i.e. the letter "S" seems pronounced). Computer hardware, mics, and dental work, may help. Until those can be afforded, thanks for your patience. ___________ 12 step: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Twelve-step_program __________ Somewhere in Time, Movie. Here's the movie trailer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9uicvPZSKIM ____________ 110 camera https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/110_film ___________ "Food desert, an impoverished area where residents lack access to healthy foods." {i.e. triple decker PB&J, Mtn Dew coktails with green grapes} https://www.britannica.com/topic/food-desert ___________ Medusa: " A close look at her role in Greek mythology and art reveals a nuanced and complex character with multiple iterations and implications." - so says The Met: https://www.metmuseum.org/toah/hd/medu/hd_medu.htm " Medusa was mortal, while the others, Stheno and Euryale, were immortal. [...] The snake-haired Medusa does not become widespread until the first century B.C. The Roman author Ovid describes the mortal Medusa as a beautiful maiden seduced [i.e. RAPED] by Poseidon in a temple of Athena. Such a sacrilege attracted the goddess’ wrath, and she punished Medusa by turning her hair to snakes." "The term gorgoneion refers to the head and face of Medusa, which was used often as a decorative motif. It is a prolific symbol of her particular power that appears in architecture, vase painting, and metalwork." [Similar colloquial examples: The Starbucks coffee logo, inspired by a Nordic wood carving, depicting a two tailed mermaid, smiling. Note: The parents of the Gorgons and Medusa, were sea creatures, in the myth.] ___________ Medusa: Hesiod’s Theogony, circa 8th-7th century B.C. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Theogony __________ Medusa: Ovid's Metamorphoses, circa year 8 A.D. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Metamorphoses _____________ POD DESCRIPTION: This is the House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. Language is explicit, Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, recovery, codependency, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

20 Juni 202130min

A warm summer afternoon, we kick up dust, wear a dress that's H-H-Hot, a little weed too, feeling exhausted, calm. Yet - how did those ghosts exist, where we did, in that haunted old house... A few archetypes, offer explanation. And - is a classic movie, Somewhere In Time - romantic art, mental health issue, perhaps bit of both? This movie offers concept nuggets, to ponder. _______ REFERENCES: may be updates later: _______ Monet. The Water Lilies. Seeing a canvas in person - it's still with me. A link to the Portland Art Museum & Monet, where I saw his work: https://portlandartmuseum.org/seeing-nature-the-water-lily-pond/ _____ Glenn Yarbrough, at the Hungry I, performing The Mermaid: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A3-NfdYyf0M A fave song, from mohmah. And here's Rose, same album: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sLczBYy5sOA ___________ Got my first Anchor subscriber! Still working out the mechanics. ___________ Cameo for voice? ___________ Potential indicators of predators: Too many lawn ornaments, too much stuff, covering content. Hiding his monster. Copying art. One example: Patrick Swayze's character, in the movie Donny Darko. ___________ Emily Dickinson, art discovered after death. Like Van Gogh. Dr. Who ep on Van Gogh. _______________ "The Diet Center" ; Richard Simmons. ______________ Judgments how people sell their time. Psychics. What is a valid task to do, to trade time for money. _________________ Book: After death communication: "Hello From Heaven" Guggenheims. Amazon link below, Kindle available: https://www.amazon.com/Hello-Heaven-Research-After-Death-Communication-Confirms/dp/0553576348/ref=sr_1_1?dchild=1&keywords=%22hello+from+heaven%22+guggenheim&qid=1623547421&sr=8-1 _____________ POD DESCRIPTION: This is the House on Valencia Street. This is a place where ghosts & psychics, with PTSD, exist, & I'm talking about it. Share time with a rare survivor, walking back to haunted rooms and space being claimed from long ago. This is from the survivor's perspective, communicated as I see fit, in a way that feels right, for me. I do not offer advice here, I share what worked for me. I am not a professional therapist, this is just one case study, one perspective. Please seek professional help, if mental health issues need attention. Language is explicit, Content Warning: ghosts, psychic ability, rape, incest, foster care, murder, emancipation, BDSM, therapy, lightning strikes, personal responsibility, Buddhism, recovery, codependency, domestic violence - and inappropriate humor, most likely. Picture inset: This is me, so many years ago, standing in front of my mother's Impala, and the House on Valencia Street.

13 Juni 202130min