An Ongoing Practice | Ep.35 — Nick's 5-MeO Experience

Nick, a Seattle-based UX researcher, shares his journey of how debilitating Long Covid became a gateway of discovery revealing his physical symptoms were manifestations of decades-old nervous system dysregulation and unprocessed C-PTSD.

Nearly six months after his intensive at Enfold, Nick reveals what brought him to this medicine: debilitating fibromyalgia, chronic body tension, and a nervous system stuck in survival mode since age 16. Despite meditation retreats and other healing modalities, he still couldn't access safety in his own body. What emerges is a story of gradual transformation — from reconnecting with trust and rest in his body, to recognizing patterns that had been keeping him from stepping fully into his life and upcoming marriage.

This conversation explores the intersection of somatic healing, ancestral patterns, and the non-linear nature of deep nervous system work.

In This Episode:

1. How COVID became the catalyst that revealed deeper nervous system dysregulation

2. The ongoing process of learning what trust and rest feel like in the body

3. Why his Zen practice prepared him for the medicine but couldn't reach certain wounds

4. The shadow work revelation about not fully stepping into mature masculinity

5. The rage and sorrow that needed expression after generations of family suppression

6. Why healing continues to unfold in both profound moments and mundane daily life

🔍 For anyone whose body holds tension despite years of practice, Nick's story shows how transformation is rarely instant — it's a patient unfolding that compounds over time through multiple experiences and practices.

🗣️ "These difficult emotions are just strong currents flowing through deep time... it's like taking off a tight pair of shoes." — Nick

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