Am I Getting Married Again!?!?!

Shit really hit the fan this week. Our mental health is no joke! It's SO important that we all continue to check in with ourselves often. Please know that you cannot fix ANYONE. Right now, I am surrendering. I am focusing on the things I CAN control because at the end of the day I have to do what is best for myself and my children…Sometimes it has to get BAD before it gets better. TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide & Drug use  Finding Laura Clery: Website: lauraclery.com Read/Listen: Idiot & Idiots Checkout our new Kids Show: Pammy's World TikTok & Youtube & Facebook: @Laura Clery Instagram: @lauraclery Episode Breakdown: -00:00 Helloooooo -00:15 Heartbroken & confused -2:00 The 12 step program -4:30 It’s OK to ask for help! -5:21 I am sharing the truth -6:30 We can’t fix other people -7:00 TRIGGER WARNING: Suicide  -8:16 Codependency  -9:50 I surrender -13:37 Remember that you are enough & you are whole -14:20 There’s something in AA called “The God Shot” -15:00 TRIGGER WARNING: Drugs & Suicide mention -19:20 Taking my power back -24:00 I must create boundaries & that also means pausing Pammy’s World ): -25:00 I actually DON’T feel alone -27:00 Taking life 1 minute at a time Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

25 Aug 202230min

If you’re recovering from a toddler grocery store tantrum today, I UNDERSTAND YOU. We need to eliminate the shame around parenting in public, because it is not easy! I’m even singing the Pamela Pig Calm Down Song today, because it’s just good to let it out! AHHGHHHH! If you’re experiencing a lot of fear or pain, just know it can lead to INCREDIBLE GROWTH. You have the potential to feel and heal your pain! TRIGGER WARNING: Suicidal ideation  Finding Laura Clery: Website: lauraclery.com Read/Listen: Idiot & Idiots Checkout our new Kids Show: Pammy's World TikTok & Youtube & Facebook: @Laura Clery Instagram: @lauraclery Episode Breakdown: -00:00 The shit show that is today  -1:43 The shade from my OWN SON -4:45 Vegan food porn (it’s so good) -7:57 Grocery store humiliation  -10:22 If you didn’t know about Pammy’s World, now ya know! -12:00 My 3-yr-old calls smoothies “Fussies”, it sounds really wrong -13:31 What’s with all the Mom judgment?? -20:10 Back-to-school means we have to cut our kids some slack -21:19 I hit a BREAKING point! -24:17 Give yourself permission to do NOTHING -25:48 What is toxic positivity?  -26:16 TRIGGER WARNING: Suicidal ideation  -27:17 I have never connected to a religion like Buddhism before…until now  -29:30 YOU ARE NOT ALONE! -31:31 Seeking nirvana & listening to Nirvana Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

18 Aug 202234min

My brain feels like it’s melting sometimes! There’s SO MUCH information out there on the internet. Maybe you can relate, but I get ALL sorts of wild ideas put in my head. For example, am I in a trauma bond? Are you!? Today we’re taking an internet quiz to tell us what’s really going on in our relationships! Finding Laura Clery: Website: lauraclery.com Read/Listen: Idiot & Idiots Checkout our new Kids Show: Pammy's World TikTok & Youtube & Facebook: @Laura Clery Instagram: @lauraclery Episode Breakdown: -00:00 HELLO! Here are some WILD fun facts  -1:00 My love/hate relationship with the internet  -2:30 Are we in trauma bonds? We’re gonna take a quiz & find out -5:05 I’m back from visiting my aunt & this is your sign to reach out to someone you love!  -8:10 My deep fear of abandonment vs. giving my husband space                                                       -10:44 Let’s try positive visualization!   -12:01 Staying positive > spiraling  -13:11 ALL the tea is in my book…Idiots -17:12 Highs, lows, & everything inbetween  -22:44 Remember, you can’t fix anyone!  -28:00 The communication style of my dreams… -29:17 The results from the quiz ARE IN!! -30:47 Not so black & white  -33:14 5 things you’re grateful for READY SET GO! -34:04 Watch Pammy’s World on youtube to see butterflies, alligators, and days of the week Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

11 Aug 202237min

It's my birthday. I’m 36 now and DONE with ignoring my instincts! It's time to cut to the real issues. I’m worried about my children’s digital footprint! With a life that revolves around sharing my world online, I’ve had to figure out boundaries for myself, but more importantly for MY KIDS. There's no easy answer but Stephen and I have decided to take the posting of our kids WAY down. When you know better, you do better, right!? If I can share anything with you, please just make sure to TRUST YOUR GUT and don't be afraid to make the HARD choices! Ok?? Finding Laura Clery: Website: lauraclery.com Read/Listen: Idiot & Idiots Checkout our new Kids Show: Pammy's World TikTok & Youtube & Facebook: @Laura Clery Instagram: @lauraclery Episode Breakdown: -00:00 Hello hello hello! -1:30 I’m not a birthday person  -7:24 Traveling on my own, no kids & no Stephen for the FIRST time! -10:50 Call the people you love & tell them. Plus, always trust your gut  -11:30 To post or not to post the kids… -17:29 Not EVERYTHING needs to be shared online -18:20 Mindfully posting our family -22:00 How can we be more thoughtful & caring online? -27:30 “You only get 5 years! And then they’re not little anymore” (or whatever that viral TikTok audio says) -28:53 What do YOU think about all of this? -30:40 Wish me luck AND 5 things you’re grateful for Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

4 Aug 202234min

Today I’m going to tell you the story of when I was viciously attacked by my ex-boyfriend’s ex-girlfriend. SO many twists and turns in this one! Prepare yourself. It’s hard to believe but I did have a life before I married Stephen. CRAZY, I know! This story will live on in my memory forever, and NOT because it was a good one. I’ll also explain to you the LAST time I ever mooned someone, and WHY. Strap in because you are not ready. TRIGGER WARNING: It does get really dark. I’m talking about suicide, assault, and rape, so take precautions if you are sensitive to these topics.  Finding Laura Clery: Website: lauraclery.com Read/Listen: Idiot & Idiots Checkout our new Kids Show: Pammy's World TikTok & Youtube & Facebook: @Laura Clery Instagram: @lauraclery Episode Breakdown: -00:00 It all started at a party, we’re talking dance clubs in your basement type of parties   -1:30 Can I give you some advice? Always approach the chihuahua, okay?  -2:44 What happens when you say, Yes to a date. Sorry Stephen, this is my past  -7:01 The ex-girlfriend wants to meet ME…they were co-parenting the chihuahua -13:48 My sister wants to start some shit- which is RARE -16:26 It goes DOWN! -17:40 You ever find yourself hiding in a bathroom thinking you’re going to die? Same here. -18:53 TRIGGER WARNING: It gets really dark from here -21:05 He is talking her off the ledge and the police are about to arrive -24:55 I wrote more stories like this in my first book Idiot, you can download the audio book and listen -28:00 I discovered yoga & old ladies. Plus I started my mooning phase, sorry-not-sorry.  -31:40 I was trying to escape my reality by literally running away…to Tijuana, Mexico  -34:33 One day at a time, keep coming back & JUST keep quitting   Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

28 Juli 202242min

Yippee, you woke up today! Let's celebrate that! Gratitude is EVERYTHING. Gratitude for what you have, what you want, what you definitely will get! And even gratitude for piss. All over my house. Did I mention today is day 3 of potty training? WE GOT THIS PEOPLE! It’s important to focus on the progress, not just the outcomes. Life isn't always easy. Especially when the supreme court is trying to screw us over! Anyway I get REAL about my life story and I hope it helps you feel less alone…. TRIGGER WARNING: Being young is hard and I’m discussing statutory rape, emotional abuse, and the abortion I got when I was 15. My body, my choice. Finding Laura Clery: Website: lauraclery.com Read/Listen: Idiot & Idiots Checkout our new Kids Show: Pammy's World TikTok & Youtube & Facebook: @Laura Clery Instagram: @lauraclery Episode Breakdown: -00:00 Welcome to Idiot! -00:11 Meditation time, don’t worry it’s just one minute long -1:20 Five things you’re grateful for, GO! -4:20 ONE small thing you want to manifest, visualize it -7:00 It’s our JOB to share our gifts with the world  -8:00 repeat after me: I DESERVE IT -9:00 I want a son who’s potty trained & I read Oh Crap potty training method -11:21 Day 3 of being naked and Pissed on ALL DAY -15:35 The dark chocolate reward system because…PEEPEE ON THE POTTY IS A BIG DEAL! -17:11 Did I mention we have a CHILDREN’S SHOW CALLED PAMMY’S WORLD!! I still can’t believe it  -18:17 I cut my hair off so I could Mom Better  -18:43 Saying yes to wayyyy too many things = D.A.R.E to “Just Say No” -20:47 Idiot = I went from being a broke suicidal drug addict to living a happy, sober, successful life beyond my wildest dreams -21:24 Idiots = All the stories I was too afraid to tell in my first book  -21:45 I cannot BELIEVE we’re going backwards -24:29 I played a pregnant virgin mary while ACTUALLY pregnant at 15 -26:03 It doesn’t matter WHY I decided to get an abortion, it’s my RIGHT  -28:55 Amazing, Amazing Nicole <3 -30:11 You kinda have to laugh… -33:20 My mom was nothing but compassionate & understanding  -34:54 I hope my story can make someone feel less alone -35:24 Back to the kiddos, I love you all so much Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

21 Juli 202237min

AARRGGAAHUH! I’m fighting with my own brain today. NOT fun! Let’s just STOP feeling selfish for doing what we love most, OK?? It is our duty to share our gifts and talents with the world, NOT to feel guilty for them! It’s time to allow those doubts to pass you right on by. BYE-BYE doubts, and hellooooo confidence! Oh and heads up, we’re going to be manifesting today because that shit works. Just don’t ask me how!   Finding Laura Clery: Website: lauraclery.com Read Idiot & Idiots Checkout our new Kids Show: Pammy's World TikTok & Youtube & Facebook: @Laura Clery Instagram: @lauraclery Episode Breakdown: -00:00 YippeeeeeeeeEEEEe, I’m just excited to be here -2:21 You’re an artist? MAKE ART…  -3:00 It’s selfish to NOT share your gifts  -4:47 Being scared shitless & doing it anyway -6:00 2 minute meditation time (If you’re driving DO NOT CLOSE YOUR EYES please) -8:51 10 things you’re grateful for  -10:00 My morning routine  -10:53 Law of attraction, it works for me -13:33 Food for Life Global, the vegan food bank -14:35 Facebook emailed me (yes you heard that right) and together we fed 40,000 people -17:50 The unstoppable mindset: “If you think you can, you CAN. If you think you cannot you CAN’T” -20:10 The rooms of AA are my higher power -22:00 One day turned into 10 years -23:45 Progress not perfection but also I’m getting Botox right after this -26:43 Can I smell yo dick?  -29:41 Jlo’s ACTUAL Fountain of Fucking Youth -34:58 Did you have fun? Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

14 Juli 202238min

I’M BAAAAACK!!! On the mic that is. What is this podcast you ask? Good question. It’s a straight talking, vulnerable, messy, beautiful exploration into all things life. So exactly like a conversation with your ride or die BFF! I call it like I see it, and keep things JUICY…I’m back and I’m ready to make this the best kick ass show ever! Am I terrified? Oh yea.  Finding Laura Clery: Website: lauraclery.com Read/Listen: Idiot & Idiots TikTok & Youtube & Facebook: @Laura Clery Instagram: @lauraclery Episode Breakdown: -00:00 Welcome to Idiot! -2:30 HELP, why am I so dependent on my husband… -3:45 Sober times can be scary -6:11 Mom-comedy is tired  -9:57 WE’RE LAUNCHING OUR OWN KIDS SHOW!! -11:00 Gratitude for Youtube Kids Shows  -13:00 That negative voice in my head… -13:25  My crippling fear is taking over…will I lose everything? -16:55 I swear this was supposed to be funny…I was gonna prank call my sister -18:38 Everyone has a gift -20:15 I read The Tao Te Ching to learn how to do nothing  -21:04 Love and be loved. And help heal the world with your gifts -21:59 I’m a really good mom -23:34 My vegan son kicked a chicken  -24:53 I’m evolving and changing -26:00 “Live in your purpose & leave it” & I love you -27:50 Something that brings you joy- INSERT HERE  Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

7 Juli 202230min