Ep 101. I spiralled after episode 100. Here’s what it showed me

In this episode of Shadow Work, WTF?, I’m pulling back the curtain on what really happened after episode 100 left me in a full-on spiral. I thought I had it all together, until old shadows I thought were long gone reared their heads. Chaos, guilt, people-pleasing… they all came flooding back, showing me exactly where I’ve still got work to do.

If you’ve ever felt like your growth journey has stalled or found yourself avoiding parts of your past you’d rather forget, this one’s for you.

I share:

• Why episode 100 cracked open shadows I’ve spent years trying to bury.

• How my chaotic “hot mess” past came back to haunt me and what it revealed.

• The truth about guilt, people-pleasing, and why avoiding these feelings only made them stronger.

• How I’ve been unconsciously hiding behind my “safe person” persona—and why it’s time to stop.

This episode is raw, real, and a reminder that shadow work is never done. It’s a constant journey of meeting yourself, again and again, with honesty and compassion.

Key Points and Timestamps:

00:00:77 - The truth about my avoidance

Why I’ve been MIA since episode 100—and the spiral it triggered.

02:10:089 - Facing my chaotic shadow

How the chaotic “hot mess” version of me showed up and why I couldn’t ignore her anymore.

06:56:847 - Guilt, people-pleasing, and shame

The patterns I couldn’t escape: why guilt drove my people-pleasing and how it still impacts me today.

11:39:483 - Hiding behind safety

How I’ve been watering down my voice out of fear of being seen as unsafe or unkind.

20:48:222 - The messy truth about hurting people

Why it’s okay to hurt people unintentionally—and what I’ve learned about accountability, compassion, and growth.

29:12:971 - The light on the other side

What processing these shadows has taught me and how it’s freeing me to show up more authentically in my business and life.

Resources Mentioned:

• The Shadow Spotter Cheat Sheet: Start identifying the patterns holding you (and your clients) back.

  Follow Shadow Alchemy Coaching Academy on Instagram: @shadowalchemycoachingacademy

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