The Covert Narcissism Podcast27 Jun 2024

With Covert Narcissism, I Am NOT Okay.

Listening to some music the other day, a song came on that really spoke to me. It was by Jelly Roll and titled “I Am Not Okay.” I can’t speak for Jelly Roll, but as a victim of covert narcissism, these lyrics could not have been more fitting.

I am not okay

I'm barely getting by

I'm losing track of days

I'm losing sleep at night

I am not okay

I'm hanging on the rails

So if I say I'm fine just know I learned to hide it well.

I know I can't be the only one who's holding on for dear life

But I know God knows when it's all said and done

I'm not okay, but it's all gonna be alright

It's not okay, but we're all gonna be alright.

I woke up today

I almost stayed in bed

I had the devil on my back voices in my head

Some days it all ain't bad

Some days it all gets worse

Some days I swear I'm better off laying in the dirt.

~ Song lyrics from "I Am Not Okay," by Jelly Roll

In this episode of the Covert Narcissism Podcast, host Renee Swanson delivers a powerful message inspired by the song lyrics of Jelly Roll's new hit single "I Am Not Okay." Renee reflects on her past of being married to a covert narcissist while allowing the song lyrics to help her explain and reflect on her past.

I am Renee Swanson, and I help people recover from covert narcissistic abuse.

Are you tired of feeling isolated and alone?
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Renee Swanson, Certified Coach and Advocate for Victims of Covert Narcissistic Abuse

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