Narcissist Apocalypse: Patterns of Abuse

In this episode of Narcissist Apocalypse, Maureen shares her experiences of physical, verbal, and sexual abuse she endured at the hands of her mother and her mother's partners . In adulthood, despite her mother's abusive behavior, Maureen forgave her repeatedly, hoping for love and acceptance. It's a story of child sexual abuse, physical abuse, suicidal ideation, putdowns, neglect, control, selfishness, being used, healing, repressed memories, mental health, cptsd, coping mechanisms, family dynamics, self-harm,  anxiety, insomnia, substance abuse, and personal growth. *** CONTENT WARNING - This episode discusses child sexual abuse, physical abuse, and suicide. *** If you want to be a guest on our survivor story podcast, please ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠click here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ or send us an email at narcissistapocalypse@gmail.com PODCAST RECOMMENDATIONS: Perfect Prey With Dr. Christine Cocchiola | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ The Covert Narcissism Podcast | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Something Was Wrong | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ When Dating Hurts Podcast | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ If you or someone you know are experiencing abuse, you are not alone. DomesticShelters.org offers an extensive library of articles and resources that can help you make sense of what you're experiencing, connect you with local resources and find ways to heal and move forward. Visit ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠www.domesticshelters.org⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ to access this free resource.  If you need help moving due to domestic violence, Shelter Movers may be able to help you. They operate by referral. Clients may be referred by any person of authority (social worker, doctor, police, crisis counselor, teacher, etc.) or public agency (shelter, hospital, school, workplace, place of worship, sexual assault centre, etc.).  To reach them, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠click here. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our new Community Social Network at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://community.narcissistapocalypse.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our Instagram Channel at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/narcissistapocalypse⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our Youtube Channel at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCpTIgjTqVJa4caNWMIAJllA⁠⁠ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

9 Jun 1h 5min

In this episode of Narcissist Apocalypse, Brandon talks with Poncho about her physically abusive relationship with an impulsive spendthrift. It's a story of child sex abuse, caretaking, thinking you're the problem, infidelity, ex wives, rage, gaslighting, death, trauma bonding, narcissistic mothers, neglect, intergenerational trauma, and healing. *** CONTENT WARNING *** - This episode discusses graphic discussion of child sex abuse and intimate partner violence. The child sex abuse is mentioned when Poncho is describing her upbringing in the first 12 minutes of the show.*** If you want to be a guest on our survivor story podcast, please ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠click here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ or send us an email at narcissistapocalypse@gmail.com PODCAST RECOMMENDATIONS: Perfect Prey With Dr. Christine Cocchiola | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ The Covert Narcissism Podcast | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Something Was Wrong | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ When Dating Hurts Podcast | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ If you or someone you know are experiencing abuse, you are not alone. DomesticShelters.org offers an extensive library of articles and resources that can help you make sense of what you're experiencing, connect you with local resources and find ways to heal and move forward. Visit ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠www.domesticshelters.org⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ to access this free resource.  If you need help moving due to domestic violence, Shelter Movers may be able to help you. They operate by referral. Clients may be referred by any person of authority (social worker, doctor, police, crisis counselor, teacher, etc.) or public agency (shelter, hospital, school, workplace, place of worship, sexual assault centre, etc.).  To reach them, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠click here. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our new Community Social Network at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://community.narcissistapocalypse.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our Instagram Channel at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/narcissistapocalypse⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our Youtube Channel at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCpTIgjTqVJa4caNWMIAJllA⁠⁠ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

6 Jun 1h 30min

In this episode of Narcissist Apocalypse, Brandon talks with Evelyn about her marriage to a cheating manipulative narcissist. At first, Evelyn felt her husband had a bit of a drinking issue, but once they had children, Evelyn realized the issues ran deeper than addiction. Evelyn's husband needed to be the center of attention, and if he wasn't going to get it from her or the kids, he'd get it from someone else. Despite therapy (which became weaponized) and attempts to save the marriage, Evelyn realized she needed to leave for her and her children's well-being. It's a story of manipulation, intergenerational trauma, intimidation, religious beliefs, financial leverage, gaslighting, kids as extensions, infidelity, codependency, and weaponized therapy. If you want to be a guest on our survivor story podcast, please ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠click here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ or send us an email at narcissistapocalypse@gmail.com PODCAST RECOMMENDATIONS: Perfect Prey With Dr. Christine Cocchiola | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ The Covert Narcissism Podcast | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Something Was Wrong | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ When Dating Hurts Podcast | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ If you or someone you know are experiencing abuse, you are not alone. DomesticShelters.org offers an extensive library of articles and resources that can help you make sense of what you're experiencing, connect you with local resources and find ways to heal and move forward. Visit ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠www.domesticshelters.org⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ to access this free resource.  If you need help moving due to domestic violence, Shelter Movers may be able to help you. They operate by referral. Clients may be referred by any person of authority (social worker, doctor, police, crisis counselor, teacher, etc.) or public agency (shelter, hospital, school, workplace, place of worship, sexual assault centre, etc.).  To reach them, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠click here. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our new Community Social Network at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://community.narcissistapocalypse.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our Instagram Channel at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/narcissistapocalypse⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our Youtube Channel at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCpTIgjTqVJa4caNWMIAJllA⁠⁠ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

2 Jun 1h 19min

In this episode of Narcissist Apocalypse, Citrine shares her journey as an abuse survivor who endured and ultimately escaped a toxic, manipulative relationship. Listen in as Citrine explores the psychological manipulation she experienced, the early red flags she overlooked, and how her former partners stories left her feeling confused and unbalanced. Citrine's discusses the erosion of her boundaries, her former partners attempts to control her, and the strain it placed on her relationship with her family. Plus, Citrine shares the challenges she faced due to her partner's verbal abuse, infidelity, gaslighting, isolation, her unhealthy relationship with resilience, perfectionism, and people pleasing. *** CONTENT WARNING - Sexual coercion is discussed in this episode. *** If you want to be a guest on our survivor story podcast, please ⁠click here⁠ or send us an email at narcissistapocalypse@gmail.com PODCAST RECOMMENDATIONS: Perfect Prey With Dr. Christine Cocchiola | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ The Covert Narcissism Podcast | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Something Was Wrong | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ When Dating Hurts Podcast | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ If you or someone you know are experiencing abuse, you are not alone. DomesticShelters.org offers an extensive library of articles and resources that can help you make sense of what you're experiencing, connect you with local resources and find ways to heal and move forward. Visit ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠www.domesticshelters.org⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ to access this free resource.  If you need help moving due to domestic violence, Shelter Movers may be able to help you. They operate by referral. Clients may be referred by any person of authority (social worker, doctor, police, crisis counselor, teacher, etc.) or public agency (shelter, hospital, school, workplace, place of worship, sexual assault centre, etc.).  To reach them, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠click here. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our new Community Social Network at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://community.narcissistapocalypse.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our Instagram Channel at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/narcissistapocalypse⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our Youtube Channel at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCpTIgjTqVJa4caNWMIAJllA⁠⁠ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

30 Mai 2h 6min

In this episode of Narcissist Apocalypse, Brandon talks with Celia about her controlling narcissistic father. Celia shares her experiences growing up in a narcissistic family environment, marked by her father's transition from drug addiction to a fervent Christian faith, which led to further control and guilt within the family. Celia detailed her role as the scapegoat, her brother's golden child status, and the lack of support from her mother. It's a story of fear, obligation, guilt, never being good enough, family dynamics, unconditional love, trust, shame, putdowns, scapegoats, alcoholism, intergenerational trauma, never being grateful enough, vindictiveness, jealousy, worshipping, religion as control, narcissist extensions, not being allowed to express or have needs, religious beliefs, control, and pattern breaking. If you want to be a guest on our survivor story podcast, please ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠click here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ or send us an email at narcissistapocalypse@gmail.com PODCAST RECOMMENDATIONS: Perfect Prey With Dr. Christine Cocchiola | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ The Covert Narcissism Podcast | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Something Was Wrong | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ When Dating Hurts Podcast | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ If you or someone you know are experiencing abuse, you are not alone. DomesticShelters.org offers an extensive library of articles and resources that can help you make sense of what you're experiencing, connect you with local resources and find ways to heal and move forward. Visit ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠www.domesticshelters.org⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ to access this free resource.  If you need help moving due to domestic violence, Shelter Movers may be able to help you. They operate by referral. Clients may be referred by any person of authority (social worker, doctor, police, crisis counselor, teacher, etc.) or public agency (shelter, hospital, school, workplace, place of worship, sexual assault centre, etc.).  To reach them, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠click here. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our new Community Social Network at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://community.narcissistapocalypse.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our Instagram Channel at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/narcissistapocalypse⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our Youtube Channel at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCpTIgjTqVJa4caNWMIAJllA⁠⁠ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

26 Mai 1h 8min

In this episode of Narcissist Apocalypse, Brandon talks with Nina about surviving abuse at the hands of her narcissistic mother and new abusive husband. It’s a story of kidnapping, conditional love, sexual abuse, physical abuse, sibling roles, trauma, guilt, shame, and healing. *** CONTENT WARNING - This episode discusses physical and sexual abuse of a child. It is descriptive and is in more than one part. *** If you want to be a guest on our survivor story podcast, please ⁠click here⁠ or send us an email at narcissistapocalypse@gmail.com PODCAST RECOMMENDATIONS: Perfect Prey With Dr. Christine Cocchiola | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ The Covert Narcissism Podcast | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Something Was Wrong | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ When Dating Hurts Podcast | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ If you or someone you know are experiencing abuse, you are not alone. DomesticShelters.org offers an extensive library of articles and resources that can help you make sense of what you're experiencing, connect you with local resources and find ways to heal and move forward. Visit ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠www.domesticshelters.org⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ to access this free resource.  If you need help moving due to domestic violence, Shelter Movers may be able to help you. They operate by referral. Clients may be referred by any person of authority (social worker, doctor, police, crisis counselor, teacher, etc.) or public agency (shelter, hospital, school, workplace, place of worship, sexual assault centre, etc.).  To reach them, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠click here. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our new Community Social Network at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://community.narcissistapocalypse.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our Instagram Channel at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/narcissistapocalypse⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our Youtube Channel at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCpTIgjTqVJa4caNWMIAJllA⁠⁠ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

23 Mai 2h 1min

In this episode of Narcissist Apocalypse, Brandon talks with Ash about her abusive relationship. Ash grew up with a narcissistic father and a co-dependent mother, which shaped her into a people pleaser. Ash loved creating art, but her passion was never championed by anyone... until she met her abusive ex. He praised her passion and Ash felt seen. Things were good, but then the control, abuse, and infidelity began. It's a story of isolation, invalidation, being seen, cognitive dissonance, love bombing, infidelity, hoovering, people pleasing, gaslighting, self-worth,  and manipulation. If you want to be a guest on our survivor story podcast, please ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠click here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ or send us an email at narcissistapocalypse@gmail.com PODCAST RECOMMENDATIONS: Perfect Prey With Dr. Christine Cocchiola | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ The Covert Narcissism Podcast | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Something Was Wrong | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ When Dating Hurts Podcast | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ If you or someone you know are experiencing abuse, you are not alone. DomesticShelters.org offers an extensive library of articles and resources that can help you make sense of what you're experiencing, connect you with local resources and find ways to heal and move forward. Visit ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠www.domesticshelters.org⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ to access this free resource.  If you need help moving due to domestic violence, Shelter Movers may be able to help you. They operate by referral. Clients may be referred by any person of authority (social worker, doctor, police, crisis counselor, teacher, etc.) or public agency (shelter, hospital, school, workplace, place of worship, sexual assault centre, etc.).  To reach them, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠click here. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our new Community Social Network at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://community.narcissistapocalypse.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our Instagram Channel at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/narcissistapocalypse⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our Youtube Channel at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCpTIgjTqVJa4caNWMIAJllA⁠⁠ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

19 Mai 1h

In this episode of Narcissist Apocalypse, Brandon talks with Amelia & Reya about living in fear of their parent's constant emotional and verbal abuse. They lived in fear of their mom's suicide threats. They lived in fear of their mom leaving. They lived in fear of physical abuse. They lived in fear. It's a story of parentification, fear, obligation, guilt, perfection, appearances, mental health issues, protection, generational trauma, CPTSD, victim playing, autonomy, feelings, no contact, self esteem, depression, anxiety, suicidal ideation, shame, hyper vigilance, nightmares, and grief. *** CONTENT WARNING - This episode discusses suicidal ideation and graphic description of physical child abuse. Plus, one mention of the words sexual abuse. *** If you want to be a guest on our survivor story podcast, please ⁠click here⁠ or send us an email at narcissistapocalypse@gmail.com PODCAST RECOMMENDATIONS: Perfect Prey With Dr. Christine Cocchiola | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ The Covert Narcissism Podcast | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Something Was Wrong | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ When Dating Hurts Podcast | ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠Click Here⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ If you or someone you know are experiencing abuse, you are not alone. DomesticShelters.org offers an extensive library of articles and resources that can help you make sense of what you're experiencing, connect you with local resources and find ways to heal and move forward. Visit ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠www.domesticshelters.org⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ to access this free resource.  If you need help moving due to domestic violence, Shelter Movers may be able to help you. They operate by referral. Clients may be referred by any person of authority (social worker, doctor, police, crisis counselor, teacher, etc.) or public agency (shelter, hospital, school, workplace, place of worship, sexual assault centre, etc.).  To reach them, ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠click here. ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our new Community Social Network at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://community.narcissistapocalypse.com/⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our Instagram Channel at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/narcissistapocalypse⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠ Join our Youtube Channel at ⁠⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCpTIgjTqVJa4caNWMIAJllA⁠⁠ Learn more about your ad choices. Visit megaphone.fm/adchoices

16 Mai 1h 54min