28. The kind of motivation I've been missing

I've had a complicated relationship with motivation, productivity and consistency. I'm so used to yoyo-ing between two ways of going about life or working towards goals:

1 - Hustle, grind, action action action. Make to do list upon to do list and check things off until I deplete myself and burn out

2 - Let go, surrender and allow. Remember it's not all on my shoulders. That I'm a spiritual being having a human experience. Allow more acceptance for exactly where I am. Relax more and just float down the river of life

The second option feels like relief from the first until it doesn't. After awhile it ends up feeling too passive and nonintentional. So then I go back to option 1 and taking a LOT of action to hopefully make more actual progress. And whether or not I do make more progress, I end up eventually feeling drained and unsatisfied. So then I go back to option 2 and re-connect to myself and a sense of spirituality, trying to just relax and control less... until I again end up feeling a bit too directionless. And the cycle continues and continues.

This episode is about option 3. Transcending this yoyo pattern between 1 and 2 and finding motivation that's rooted in something other than fear, dissatisfaction, and a desire to change what I don't like about my life now. Rather than cracking the whip on my poor inner child, how can I intrinsically motivate and inspire her? How can I teach her to do things for the sake of being proud of herself and feeling in integrity with who she is.... instead of "you better do this OR ELSE!"

I hope this episode is helpful for anyone who struggles to be motivated and stay motivated. And with taking consistent, steady actions towards goals. I'm still figuring it out but I can already tell my inner child likes the approach of option 3 so much more than 1 and 2.